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why would Aaravos want a mortal vessel?
alright, so
I've watched the new season. I've already screamed and cried and rolled under the table and I have one final question left.
Why would Aaravos want a mortal vessel? Especially now, when the Archdragons are gone. He is supposed to be infinitely stronger than any other being on Xadia. Supposed to, yeah. Did you see the so called 'master of all six primal sources' show off his mastery more than once? Because I didn't. And it pisses me off beyond measure because it really seems like bad writing to me. He just fucking didn't do anything, just stood there, waiting for his enemies to charge at him. He was easily overcome by fucking human chains and ballistas- and one archdragon- when we were said that in the past he could easily hold off against all of them! Damn. Imo, Aaravos was seriously downplayed this season.
I know, perhaps this was his plan- to get himself killed and take all of the archdragons with him. Even so, he should've put up more of a fight. NOT JUST STAND THERE WAITING TO BE SMACKED!
And still why? Why want Callum as a mortal vessel? It doesn't make any sense. Maybe the Star Council or what's they're called- maybe they have a restriction prohibiting them to hurt mortals? Which sounds rather stupid but it's the only explanation I can think of.
The creators tried to do the build-up for arc 3 and in doing so they rushed and blurred the arc 2 finale. Putting together the archdragon drama, killing Aaravos drama and Rayllum drama was a mistake. Neither got fully developed. And were they seriously trying to tell us that the main cast would have survived the nuclear burst explosion of a star while being protected only by Domina's wings??? What are the wicked things even made of?? Oceanic mithril???
The final showdown felt like a series of Chekhov's guns which never fired. They just made a lot of drama around them, then showed them to us and- that's it. I suppose, Aaravos's plan was to get stabbed by the Nova blade, then take over Callum's body (for whatever reason) as his giant form was being destroyed. But then- we return to the question of why move to another body when there's nothing stopping Ezran from stabbing Aaravos in Callum's body (aside from their brotherly bond but that's no big deal, he just needs to ask Soren or whatever-).
As a result, we got Ezran with a Nova blade which never got to be used- Callum with his coin spell which was interrupted halfway because Aaravos got charged at by a dragon and Callum's gunsight was broken??? ??? That's- I'll be honest, this is so dumb. No Nova, no dark magic. Why even bring that at all?
And finally, what did Aaravos even die from? He did not sustain any lethal damage. When Zubeia and Avizandum were lifting him up (and yes, why didn't he stop them? did he forget all of his spells and telekinesis as well??), what were they thinking?.. What were they gonna do? It looked like they were about to drop him but- this is also so dumb. I don't think that would have worked because if Aaravos is so easy to kill- Why the fuck didn't they kill him 300 years ago??? "Didn't want to?". God damn.
I won't believe that Aaravos didn't have the power to take down the archdragons and that's why he simply decided it would be easier to go boom and set off the rebirth cycle. I refuse to believe that he is so weak. After all, one, he already killed two archdragons and that went fine. And two, even humans managed to kill one! They even survived!
Overall, I am absolutely in love with the first half of the season. I loved all the conflict everywhere, the part in Silvergrove was wonderful, felt like a real holiday- The adventures of Claudia and Co were also very exciting to watch!
But after that... It got rushed, blurred and very, very odd.
At least we got a white streak Callum. And a whole lot of 1 (one) interaction between Aaravos and Callum. That's an achievement, yeah. I love when the main protagonist and the main antagonist only have two interactions throughout all of the seasons (no, I don't, I fucking hate it).
That would be all. This is entirely my humble and angry opinion so- you are welcome to disagree. But I will stand my ground. This went very oddly and some parts I unfortunately didn't like. But I am all in for arc 3. Even angry and a little disappointed, I still fucking love this show and would be more than excited to see how it all goes from here. We still have so much to learn and see. The cube, Claudia, Rayllum, Elarion, grown up and talking Zym (it was such a twist!), Harrow in a bird... Please let us see this! Please, Netflix! Aaravos is not defeated, he merely retreated, please let us see how they'll deal with him in seven years!
#the dragon prince#tdp s7 spoilers#tdp spoilers#tdp critical#tdp aaravos#tdp archdragons#tdp opinion#thoughts#give us the saga#greenlightarc3#continue the saga#and I was genuinely surprised by the relationship between Claudia and Aaravos#an unexpected found family#I thought Aaravos would be more cold-hearted and manipulative#but it seems he warmed up for the poor girl#it doesn't seem healthy for both sides but- it was cute and understandable#upd: though now that I think about it-#it probably still was a manipulation#in claudia he prepared himself a hidden ally for his return#if claudia truly believes he thinks of her as a daughter#that would only make her work harder#and more loyally
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"It's ok to cry in class when working" why do I feel like shit then
#i worked so bad today#i wanted to use it in the exercises but I did a really horrible thing in the first part of the class#and then i cried but still didn't work like i was supposed to and i really wanted to commit and focus#but i couldn't#and I'm trying to just feel and not analyse it but it's hard#i simultaneously want to feel this and know i can't because a. it's not even really my pain and i need to be strong for someone else#because i know she's stubborn and won't show how hard she's breaking#I don't know if i should text my therapist#I'm surprised about how I'm handling this because i didn't even think i could react this badly#i forgot what point b. was#anyway point is#learing how to act is worse then therapy#*than
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The answer to the second question is no, not to the point that they can't just do stuff. Even for victims of capitalism in poverty with children to take care of and mounds of debt to pay, abled or disabled, they still "just do stuff."
Life is incredibly hard right now and for a lot of people, I'm not suggesting the opposite, and a symptom of that can be this overwhelming inability to just not do stuff whether that's major depression, anxiety, chronic fatigue, or other malady, but its not "normal" in the sense that you should just accept this is how you feel now and resolve to do nothing about it. It's a serious symptom, a sign that you're not well, and you should actively seek help or treatment. And seeking help or treatment isn't easily accessible for everyone, either, I know that, even despite the breadth of information on how to ease the burden of receiving treatment you can find online. But it is important to me that if you're struggling like this that you at least acknowledge it isn't just something you need to endure until it stops. It doesn't stop, and how you feel isn't because you're too weak for the rigors life: you need to take it seriously and seek help as best as you can.
#it is important to me because my wife won't seek meaningful help#for over 4 years she has resisted doing more than taking herbal supplements#and we CAN afford treatmentâ she just won't accept it#one time she accepted therapy and cried privately because it was such a victory towards progress#but that therapist ultimately didn't work out and she didn't really take anything away from it#practically no one ever gets their best therapist on the first or even the second try and she has refused trying again#she will not take any western anti-depressants#she won't even smoke or consume something like marijuana#she doesn't have a typical job so dealing with the threat of getting fired and not being able to pay bills is not a stressor#we do not argue or fightâ she has no performative expectationsâ#âshe has major depression + high anxietyâ I take that seriously#anyway. don't be like her. even ifâ like herâ you can afford to be#seek helpâ seek treatment. and heyâ take supplements like ashwaganda and valerian root first if you'd better doing that#but if after an extended period of time it still doesn't help then try something else. please.#(4th tag was supposed to say 'i cried privately')
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It's hilarious how abandonment comes in many forms. And even though this is the lowest and faintest form of abandonment, I'm amazed at how well it fucked up my mental state lately.
#I don't want to sound like the main character of anything which is why I try to keep these sort of ramblings to myself#but its healthy to acknowledge a problem.#Even if it sounds like a 'woe is me'#It's healthy -- at least for me -- to take off my rose-colored glasses and see things for what they truly are.#I have an issue where I can never really think that people I love can do any wrong.#If they do -- even unintentionally -- then I must be the one overreacting and being antagonistic about it.#But -- sometimes -- I really need to acknowledge that not everyone is a Saint.#I really need to acknowledge that my hurt feelings are valid. Even if it wasn't intentional I was still hurt in the end.#It's something I need to work on I suppose. I've cried too much these past few days over stupid feelings.#I wish I never felt anything at all. Or that I was the type that didn't dwell on attachments so strongly.#I sometimes wish I wasn't a person at all. I wish I was how I was back then. Stonewalling everything.#Unfortunately people grow up from their emo ages. I now need help processing all of these feelings.#Which is why I'm going to do therapy as soon as I can pay for it.
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Hi!! I saw that you write for Arcane and had a really cute idea for Vander. I donât really see a lot of fics where you get to see Vanderâs reactions to the reader either playing with the kids or comforting them, so I thought a fic centered around that might be cute? (I think also having a bit of slow burn would be sweet, like both Vander and the reader like each other but donât do anything about it until getting a little push from the kids because they ship).
ONE LITTLE PUSH
Reblogs and Comments are greatly appreciated!!
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Fandom(s): Arcane: League of Legends
Pairing(s): Vander x Reader
Word Count: 1.9k
Genre(s)/Tag(s): Gender Neutral!Reader, Bit of a Slowburn, Fluff, Getting Together, Reader is Smaller than Vander (but who isnât?), Sibling Bickering
Notes: VANDER MY FAVORITE
(No, but seriously, contrary to popular belief, heâs my 1st favorite over Viktor)
JUST IN TIME (kind of) FOR SEASON TWO, LETS GOOOOO
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Vander wasnât quite sure why you stuck around for so long.Â
In fact, he wasnât sure why you stuck around in the first place.Â
But⌠As Vander watches you with the kids. His kids. He begins to understand why.Â
You were kind, unyieldingly so. Even as Mylo grew to start picking on Powder, even as they fought, you were kind and patient and offered them the unending gentle love they all so craved.Â
The love he couldnât afford to give them because who could be gentle in the Undercity? Especially in the depths of the Lanes?
You could.Â
Vander was in the middle of pouring a drink when Powder tumbled into The Last Drop. She was covered in bruises and dust from something. Or someone. She barely met his gaze as she clambered to her feet and all but sprinted into the back where they all slept. Vander looked through the multitude of customers and spotted you.Â
You had obviously seen Powder go bolting, worry twisting your face as you glanced toward the bar and met his stare. You arched an eyebrow, and he shrugged. You rolled your eyes and sighed before smiling in jest and getting up from where you had been tinkering with the jukebox.Â
Vander finally manages to get away from his chatty clients and makes his way back into the back room nearly fifteen minutes later.Â
Only to pause by the door.Â
ââylo hates me! He does, I swear!â Powder cries, and you hush her gently, dabbing what looks to be some of the antiseptic you have lying around on her cuts and bruises. Disinfectant was hard to come by, especially in the Lanes, but you were seemingly magic in the sense that you always knew who to talk to to get some. It seems you had worked your magic yet again.Â
âDid Mylo say that he hates you?â You ask gently, whispering a quiet âsorryâ under your breath as she flinched with the sting of the antiseptic.Â
Powder pauses, thinking what had to be her earlier conversation over,Â
âWell⌠NoâŚâ She mumbles, and you hum,Â
âCan I give you my honest opinion?â You ask, and she stills, looking up at you with wide eyes before nodding.Â
âArenât you always honest with us?â She asks. You chuckle at that.Â
âI suppose I am. But I donât think Mylo hates you. Does he find you a bit annoying? Maybe. But every big brother thinks that about their younger siblings. I know mine did.â You say, and Powder mulls your words over and over and over in her mind.Â
She always did overthink things.Â
âI didn't know you had a big brother.â She says eventually, and you let out a loud laugh at that.Â
âYou are a silly girl for focusing on that. But yes, I came from a big family. And guess what? I was the baby of the family. Just. Like. You.â You say, emphasizing your words with a pinch to her side. Powder squeals with laughter and wriggles away to escape your dastardly tickling.Â
Vander hangs his head with a huff and a smile before turning to head back to the bar counter. He can hear your conversation continue as Powder escapes your grasp.
âNow, where did you get all these bruises from?â
âUm⌠Vi taught me parkour from Topside downâŚâ
âPowder! Youâre like seven!â
âSeven and a half! And she said I was ready!â
Ever since you began to stick around, you had become something of a parent figure to the four little children Vander had come into care for.Â
To Vi and Powder especially.Â
So when Mylo burst into The Last Drop with the words of a fistfight on his tongue, you were the first one out the door.Â
Vander was close behind.Â
Mylo led you and Vander deep into the Undercity. In fact, it was so far into the Undercity that Vander was worried they were getting into some dark territory.Â
Like⌠Really dark territory.Â
But soon enough, the sounds of a fight were heard, and soon after, you were deep in the throng of a multi-person fistfight. Everyone paused for a second when they saw you and then stopped altogether when they spotted Vander not far behind.Â
You began to pull people off and shoved them out of the way. You did this again and again, ducking under a few stray punches until you managed to unearth Vi.Â
She wasnât looking too hot.Â
Her face was bruised and swollen, and the fifteen-year-old spat out a wad of blood as she bared her bloody teeth and prepared to fight again.Â
At least until she saw you.Â
It was as if the tension had been released from her shoulders.Â
She all but slumped into your grasp, and you stumbled back a step with the sudden weight. Vander yanked the last person away from you both and scooped up his adoptive daughter. She leaned her head into the crook of his neck and was obviously fighting back tears.Â
Mylo was hunched over, hands on his knees, and wheezed from all the sprinting.Â
âVi? Violet, can you hear me?â You said as soon as you all returned to The Last Drop, and Vander set her down on the couch. Powder and Claggor had been found a block away, fighting off more thugs from whoever sent them after the literal children.Â
He would've pummeled them to a pulp if Vander hadnât hung up his gauntlets years before.Â
Viâs head lolled from side to side, and you shone a pocket flashlight into her eyes, watching as her pupils dilated and contracted. You were experienced at this, taking care of people, even more so than he thought.Â
Were you a doctor deep in your past?Â
As Vander thought about it, he realized he didnât know practically anything about you. Your past, your likes, dislikes, he knew you were good with machines and medicine and that you came from a big family. But that was it.Â
And that hurt his heart.Â
You ended up ushering everyone out of the room while you worked on caring for Vi. Vander closed the bar early and was in the middle of putting chairs on tables when you emerged. Powder, Mylo, and Claggor dropped what they were doing. They scampered to your side, a chorus of âHowâs Vi?â erupting from the kids. You offered them a tired smile and patted their heads.Â
âSheâll be okay. Sheâs resting right now. You can go in and see her if youâre quiet.â
And then it was the two of you.Â
Vander set the final chair on top of the table and meandered his way over where you were sitting at the bar, head in your hands.Â
You looked tired.Â
âIs she really okay?â He asked, and you grunted, rubbing at your temples.Â
âShe has a broken nose, fractured left arm, some bruised ribs, and a concussion. Which, all things considered, sheâs very lucky. It couldâve been a lot worse.â You say, and he sighs,Â
âDid she say why she got into the fight?â He replied, and you shrug,Â
âShe was protecting Powder. Then, more people started showing up until it was an all-out brawl. Thatâs when we stepped in.â You say, and his shoulders sag.Â
Vi was going to be okay.Â
âI donât think Iâve ever said it. But thank you. For everything youâve done. Taking care of them and all that.â He says, and you just hum.Â
âYou guys gave me a home after everything. Iâm just repaying my debt. Well⌠that and I love those kids.â You say, and he arches an eyebrow,
âAfter everything?â He inquires, and you glance up sharply as if not realizing what you had said.Â
Eventually, your gaze casts downward, and you run a hand over your head and through your hair.Â
âI was a doctor in Piltover before the rebellion. I was caught trying to help the Undercity before they were officially citizens and cast out.â You say, and his arched eyebrow raises even higher.Â
âA doctor? Were you any good?â You bark out a dry laugh at that,
âOne of the best!â Your voice cracks as you speak, and he feels his heart splinter into pieces.Â
Vander shouldâve known that Claggor and Mylo were up to something when they came in with sneaky grins on their faces.Â
The Last Drop was all but desolate. It was the wee hours of the morning before the people of the Undercity awoke to begin their day. But the door was unlocked, and the kids were allowed to run in and out as they pleased.Â
Which they had been doing a lot in the last hour or so.Â
âVander!â Mylor clamored for his adopted fatherâs attention, waving an excited hand as he scampered up to the counter. Claggor hung behind, ever the stoic young man. But there was mischief in their eyes and curling the corners of their mouths.Â
Vander slung the rag he used to wipe the counters down over his shoulder and leaned on the bar counter.Â
âWhat did you do now?â He teased, and Mylo all but squawked.Â
âWhen have I ever done anything?!â Vander just stared,Â
âDo you really want me to answer that?â He asked, and Claggor snickered at Myloâs deflated expression. Mylo quickly spun on a heel and jabbed a finger at his adopted brother,Â
âNot a word outta you, Claggor!â He snapped before spinning back as something dawned on him.
âYou gotta come with us!â He demanded, and Vander glanced between the two of them.Â
âWhy?â He asked, and Mylo let out an exaggerated groan.
âNo questions! Just come on!â He grabbed Vanderâs hand and tried tugging him around the counter and toward the front door.Â
Vander relented, locking the door behind him as he followed the two boys.Â
Only to realize very quickly what was actually going on.Â
His first tip-off was hearing Powder and Viâs voices, yours mixed in as you asked where you were going, why they were taking you, and what they were doing.Â
Vi answered no questions. Powder just chirped excitedly. âYouâll see! Youâll see!â
The six of you met in the middle of the street, Powder dragging you by your hand as you followed behind patiently. You glanced up from listening to Powder, and your gazes met. Vander felt his heart skip a beat as he took in your appearance. There wasnât anything particularly new, but you looked like you had cleaned up some. Your hair was pinned neatly back, and your clothes looked ironed.Â
You looked⌠Really nice.
âVander? Whatâs going on?â You asked, and Vi nudged you with her good arm. Her fractured left one was still healing carefully under your care.Â
âWeâre setting you two up.â She teased, and you stared dumbly.Â
âSetting us up how?â You asked, and now it was Powderâs turn to blurt out an answer,Â
âOn a date!âÂ
Before the two of you could react, all four kids all but disappeared around the corner in a cloud of dust. Leaving you facing Vander and utterly alone.Â
It was safe to say he was panicking just a little bit.Â
âVander? Do you have any idea what they meant?â You asked gently, and he scrubbed a hand down his face.Â
âMy guess is they want us to go on a date.â He said, fully prepared to hear rejection. Because who would want to go on a date with him? A middle-aged man with a stained past. His lungs twisted as he heard you take a step closer.Â
A smaller hand slipped into his, and he looked down from where he had been staring at Topside.Â
Your eyes were lit up, not with disgust at the proposition he was proposing.Â
But they were filled with hope for the future this relationship would bring.Â
#vander x reader#vander x you#arcane x reader#arcane x you#arcane x y/n#arcane league of legends#arcane: league of legends#arcane vander x reader#fairy writes
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Don't hide from me || Logan Howlett x Reader
summary: You get hurt on a mission and hide it from Logan. Safe to say he is not happy with you.
warnings: angst, hurt/comfort, talk of violence, blood, and injury
wc: 3k
a/n: Hi guys, tw for pet death but we had to put my childhood dog to sleep today. He was 16 and he had a good life but it's rough. Writing has always helped me so I just sat down and wrote today. I'm always a sucker for this kind of trope and I also have trouble asking for help so this was born. Idk if I like the ending but I always struggle with those so oopsie
This was not how you imagined your first mission to go. You had assumed it would be easy, boring in fact. It was supposed to be boring. Maybe a little fighting here or there but nothing serious.
Well you were sorely mistaken. Your hand puts pressure on your side as you lean against a tree. The rough bark digging into the cuts on your suit. You wince as you look down to see a massive gash right in your stomach.
"Fuck." Your breath is labored as you slowly slide down the tree. You don't heal like some of the other mutants can. In fact your powers were relatively tame compared to others but you were still an asset to the team.
You had been training for months and months. Learning to control your sparks into blasts of energy and manipulate the electricity around you. You had never been more excited to receive your suit. Handed to you by Logan himself after your final training day.
The proud look on his face made your whole body fill with butterflies. Logan had been your biggest help. He was a very distracting teacher though due to the fact that he's your boyfriend too but if anything that made him push you harder.
"Come on sweetheart, you need to do better than that." He says with a smirk. He's barely broken a sweat while you've been giving it a hundred and ten percent.
"Fuck off." You huff as you lay down on the mat. Body exhausted from the hours of training.
"You're getting better. Just need to keep working." He steps over you, bending down and holding out his hand.
"One more time and we're done." He helps you up and kisses your forehead. Walking back to his spot he raises his arms and braces himself.
"Hit me." Taking a deep breath you channel all your power to your fingertips. Feeling the jolts of power start to form. With all your strength you fire right at Logan. To your surprise it hits him square in the chest and sends him flying into the wall.
"Logan!" You run over to him but he's already up by the time you make it. A big smile on his face as he wraps his arms around you. A burst of pride in your chest as he kisses you sweetly.
"I knew you could do it."
It made it even sweeter when you were finally deemed ready to join them. You were ready. You wanted to prove to all of them that you could do it but most of all you wanted to show Logan.
Show him that all his extra training helped and that you were strong and you could do this on your own. He had always shown a slight worry about you joining the team. He says it's because he's worried and protective but a small part of your brain tells you it's because he thinks you can't do it. That you're not ready.
So this. Well it almost felt embarrassing. The mission was nothing new to the rest of the team but to you it was overwhelming. Fighting with everything you had and sometimes it felt like it wasnât enough. You took out soldier after soldier but they kept coming. But you were fine. You never asked for backup. Convincing yourself that you could do this. Thinking back to all your long days in the simulation and wiping away any doubt that lingered in your head.
Logan had left your side early on much to his reluctance so you were on your own. You were too focused on the guy in front of you that you didn't notice the man sneaking behind you. You cried out in pain as he dug his knife into your side.
Without thinking you blast him far away, taking out the guy in front of you too. Pure adrenaline courses through you as you run to safety. Now you're here, the sounds of fighting still rage on behind you. Blood is seeping onto your hand at a faster rate than normal.
"Okay. Okay. Okay okay." Sorry Professor but you'll fix your suit later. Your sleeve was already torn so you tear the rest as much of it as you can off. Turning it into one long strip of fabric. You unzip the top of your suit to get to the wound. They briefly taught you how to patch up injuries more akin to scratches not stab wounds. You tie the fabric tightly around your waist. You groan as the pressure shoots a sharp pain through your body. The sounds of fighting were dying down.
You know you should tell someone but the last thing you wanted was to be taken off the team after your first mission. You wanted to make them proud. You loved being on the team.
The injury isn't that bad, if you could just make it back to the mansion you would be fine. Patch it up with the right material and then sleep it off. Thank god you and Logan didn't share a room. Fuck. Logan. He was going to kill you but what he didn't know won't hurt him.
Just this once.
Zipping up your suit again you take a few deep breaths to calm yourself. Just make it back to the mansion. You walk as best you can back to the jet. Your limping, favoring your non injured side and it's incredibly obvious. Still you put a smile on your face. The team clocks your ripped sleeve immediately. Logan scowls as you get closer making you shiver. Or maybe that was from the blood loss.
"So how was that for your first mission?" Scott beams as he walks over to you. He slaps his hand onto your shoulder and you wince.
"Good. Is it always like this?" He notices something's off but doesn't say anything. Instead he keeps his hand on your shoulder as he guides you back to the jet.
"You alright Sparks? What happened to your suit." He asks when you get closer.
"Long story, some guy ripped it and when I ran to the forest it got caught and just. tore away." You lie right through your teeth.
"Don't worry we'll fix it when we get back." Ororo smiles and you thank god they bought it. Well almost everyone bought it.
As you head up the ramp you feel a hand on your side. Your whole body tenses as pain shoots through your side. You bite your lip hard to keep yourself from screaming. You recognize the hand as Logan's as his wide chest bumps against your back.
"You alright sweetheart?" He asks, a skeptical look on his face as you wave his hand off.
"Yeah, just really tired." You sigh as you sit in a chair.
Some relief spreads through your body as you subtly press the arm of the chair into your side. Putting more pressure as you feel the blood soak through your makeshift bandage. He narrows his eyes as he inspects you like an animal. Your heart picks up as he places both hands on either arm rest, caging you in as he leans close.
"What are you doing?" You shrink under his intense look. He sniffs and a low growl emits from his throat.
"I smell blood. Somethings wrong." Fuck. He's caught you. The rest of the team starts to file back in.
"Yeah there's blood on everyone's suit, there's blood on you." You mumble as an excuse.
"Down boy, we're taking off so take a seat." Scott says. Logan stays put for just a moment longer before he finally backs off, flipping Scott the middle claw as he takes the seat behind you.
You can feel his eyes burning in the back of your head the whole flight home. You were sweating, body on fire as you focused on your breathing. The pain was getting worse and you wanted to cry for help. But you were determined to prove yourself here.
Your brain wasn't exactly working right either. Too focused on not throwing up to think logically. Finally the jet lands. You're so close. Just a little longer. Logan moves to go right back to your side but gets pulled away. You can vaguely hear him telling someone to fuck off as you stumble out of the jet.
You feel like a zombie as you walk back to your room. Stomach growing sick as you struggle to stay awake. Sweat pours down your face, body screaming for help as you barely make it to your room. Your vision goes in and out. The darkness calling to you as you swing open your door. That sounds nice, you can just close your eyes and sleep. Yeah. Then you can fix yourself up. Your vision goes black. The last thing you remember is someone yelling your name.
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The first thing you notice when you come back to consciousness is how much your body hurts. The second thing was the hand that was holding yours tightly. Clearly you weren't in your room anymore. This bed is too uncomfortable and it smells too much like antiseptic.
The lab. You were in a hospital bed in the lab which means that someone found you which can only mean that Logan knew and you were in so much trouble. Maybe if you keep your eyes closed you can just go back to sleep. The urge to avoid the consequences of your actions was strong but you knew you couldn't. You lied and now you have to deal with it.
Surprisingly it's dim when you open your eyes. The ugly florescent lighting was off in favor of a few candles and a soft lamp. The hand holding yours twitched, holding you tighter. Looking to your side you see Logan laying his head on the bed. Guilt seeps into your soul when you see him there.
"Glad to see you awake." A soft voice says from the door.
"Jean." You sheepishly say. She flicks on the lights and you squint your eyes at the bright light.
"You're lucky that Logan found you when he did." Her voice is gentle but there's anger hidden behind it.
"I'm sorry. I thought." You sigh and look at Logan who was still sleeping.
"I thought I could handle it. I just wanted to be one of you guys." "You already were one of us, but we're just glad you're okay." She checks your vitals once more in silence.
"Am I in trouble?" You ask nervously.
"Yes." Another voice makes your heart jump, the monitor picking it up with a massive spike.
"Logan honey I-" He holds up his hand and silently asks Jean to leave. She gives you one last smile before leaving the two of you alone.
"Don't. Don't you dare." You shrink into the bed as speaks.
"What the hell were you thinking?"
"I-"
"Hiding a fucking stab wound? For what? Exactly what did you think would happen here!" He raises his voice and you look down in shame.
"You are benched. Permanently." He growls, standing up and storming towards the door.
"What! Logan you can't do that."
"Fuck yes I can. Do you understand how stupid it was for you to hide an injury like that? How irresponsible you were!"
"I thought I could handle it!" The machines near you started to go haywire as you yelled back.
"I thought you were dead!" You go silent as the anger fades, he clenches his fists tightly.
"I smelled the blood and I knew something was wrong. The whole time I knew it. There was a trail of blood to your room and I ran and ran and when I finally got there." He pauses. Not even wanting to say the next thought.
"I'm sorry." You whisper.
You reach out for him but he just stares at you. A painful expression on his face as his eyes zero in on the prominent scar on your side. He shakes his head, turning away and walking out the door.
"Logan please." You beg for him to come back but he doesn't.
The lab is silent and lonely. Jean comes back to check on you, comforting you as you silently cry. All you want is for Logan to come back but he never did.
At least not while you were awake. In the mornings there were traces of Logan. His jacket is left on your bed the one you always steal to cuddle with. Snacks are waiting by your table. Little things to show you had still been there. Just not when you were awake.
It was only a couple days later that you were finally discharged. The Professor had called you to his office, letting you know that you were benched until you had fully recovered and you nodded in understanding. You can feel the stares of the rest of the mansion on you as you walk back to your room.
You've apologized over and over to the team and they welcomed you back with open arms. Begging you to never scare them like that again. Your mind wanders and your feet seem to think on their own as you find yourself in front of Logan's door.
All you want is for him to hold you and to tell you it's okay. Before you can knock on the door it swings open. There he stands in all his glory. He stares at you for a moment before pulling you into a hug. It takes you by surprise but you hug him back tighter. You wince as he pushes a little too hard on your side and he lets go instantly. You don't want to let go, he's been gone for days and you need him.
"I'm here to apologize." You say.
"I'm sorry for not saying anything. I was afraid that you would think I'm weak." It hurts to admit but he needs to know the truth. Asking for help has never been your strong suit.
"That I wasn't strong enough and all I wanted was to prove to you that I could do it. I wanted you to be proud of me." You wait for any response but all he does is look at you. Silently he guides you to his bed. Wrapping a blanket around your shoulders that smells like him.
"When I found you, you weren't moving. There was so much blood. You were barely breathing." He shivers at the memory.
He doesn't think he'll ever get the smell of your blood and the sight of you sprawled out on the ground out of his mind. It's burned there. Every time he closes his eyes he sees it. He ran through the mansion. Begging for help with you in his arms.
They kicked him out once he brought you to the lab. He was close to breaking down the damn doors. He had super strength and a raging healing factor but he'd never felt so powerless before. When they finally let him back in he rushed to the bed. He never left your side. Watching and waiting for you to wake up. Begging you to wake up.
Was this his fault? If he had been by your side would he have been able to help? Or is this just the price of this life. To be a mutant and having to fight just to live. Losing you was not an option but it was becoming a reality he had to accept was possible.
"I'm always proud of you. Doesn't matter what you do. I'm always proud." You tug on his tank top and pull him close.
Kissing him with a soft passion, a desire, an apology. He carefully lowers you down to the bed. He lays you on your side as he deepens the kiss, hand ghosting over the scar as he tangles his limbs with yours.
"I'm so sorry Logan." You bury your head in his chest.
It feels so good to be by his side again. He tilts your head up to look at him. He grows serious as he brushes your cheek gently. You're alive but there's still a horrible worry inside of him. Though he doesn't think that will ever go away. Not as long as he loves you and he's never going to stop doing that.
"Don't ever do something like this again. I'm serious sweetheart, I can't lose you."
"You won't." You can't promise him that. Not at all. Bad things happen to those he loves but he'll be damned if he lets anything happen to you. You yawn and cuddle closer to his side.
"How can I still be so tired after sleeping for so long?"
"You really hurt yourself sweetheart," He glances at your side. Knowing that under the blanket was a scar that would never fade. A constant reminder of his own failure to protect you.
"I'm sorry for leaving," He knows it was a dick move to leave has he had done but he couldn't take it. He was so angry. So afraid.
"Just don't leave me again." You say sleepily. His arms wrap around you, his hand rubbing your back soothingly until you fall asleep. He watches you for a while. Not tired himself but keeping his promise of staying with you.
"I was so scared," He admits to no one but himself.
He rests his chin on your head. The sound of your heartbeat echoes in his ears. The sweet reminder that you're okay. He closes his eyes as the nightmares in his mind return. Seeing your lifeless body. The blood. All of it. He tries to shake them away but the thoughts still linger.
"Please, don't leave me. I love you too much to let you go." He whispers his plea to himself, to you, to whoever is listening.
He kisses the top of your head and you smile in your sleep. The comfort of Logan reaching your dreams. That's good enough for him, as long as you're okay. That's all he needs.
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GOTTA BE GENTLE !
characters: nanami, gojo, choso
genre: smut
warnings: pet names(darling for nanami, baby for both gojo & choso), finger fucking, unprotected sex, p-i-v penetration, breeding(choso's), choso calls reader delicate, reader has a vagina
a/n: i saw this post and just knew i had to take advantage of it. enjoy!
Nanami
eyes narrowing in on your helpless body, nanami pounds his cock deep into you with deep, slow, and calculated thrusts. his tip presses against your cervix with almost every stroke. though, slight hesitancy is shown with him. not just because today he was forced to work overtime - but almost because he was holding back. his forearms flexed more than usual, while his focus is on his thrusts. not only to ensure he calculates correctly to pleasure you, but almost like he's checking if he's using too much force with you. he could quite literally cause much more damage if he wished to do so - and even when he's holding back, he's still seemingly overly conscious of your smaller body. "feelin' alright, d-darling? hope I'm not - hurtin' you." he says through struggled groans and grit teeth, smirking when your cries of pleasure get louder directly after. "i'll take that.. as a yes."
Gojo
gojo smirks, fingers buried deep into your cunt as he fingers you. his pace has changed multiple times - fast, then slow, a medium pace then slow and fast again. to keep you on your toes, keep you whining for him. but there's only one thing - you've seen gojo do a lot. with much more force and effortless power than you ever thought could be conjured for a supposed human. however, with you, he was always so gentle - so caring and conscious of every touch that made contact with you. it even got to a point he'd told you he held back. that he had to, otherwise, there was no telling what'd happen. "faster, please. please, please, please." you beg, feeling your climax approaching quickly. you were close - so close. "can't do that one, baby." he denies, slowing his pace intentionally. "'toru!" you whine, almost beginning to kick at the unfair teasing. "please." gojo only shakes his head. "if i went any faster, i'm sure i'd break you. can't hurt my one and only, right?~" he asks, fingers fastening with every syllable before coming down again, stopping your climax once again. "gotta care for you gently, baby."
Choso
you feel your eyes roll to the back of your head, choso angling your fragile body just perfectly over the bed and hitting your g-spot with every stroke. and even though they're all fairly harsh, his grasp his harsher. the way his fingers dig into your waist, the obvious flex of his veins and slight shake he has despite being perfectly fine. you knew he was holding something back - he usually always was. you throw your hand back, reaching in search of making contact with his while he continues to fuck you over the bed. "fuck, baby." he groans, throwing his head back in pleasure. "if i didn't know any better.. i 'ought to fuck you 'til you become one with the mattress." he says, speeding up with his thrusts when he feel's your puffy cunt squeeze against his cock once again. "y'so fuckin' delicate, can't even give you all i want.." he brings your hips to meet his, filling you with his cum once again. "..i'd fuck around n' hurt you." he says as he kisses your temples, smirking as you try to come down from your orgasm.
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You know what I was thinking of all day? Comforting our sad baby Bucky who just wants a hug. He's tired from a bad mission. His body aches. He saw things he didn't want to. He could really just use something.
Even just a smile?
He doesn't have a lot of friends and most people around the compound outside of the team avoid him. Even those who'd worked with him for ages were still wary, scared he'd snap if they just asked how he's doing. He would have liked it, even just a hello in passing. When he walks by with a scowl on his face, no one meets his eye. If they did, they would have seen the storm that was brewing inside was not an angry one.
He just needed to be held.
When he continues to make his way towards his room, he's given a few nods from a couple of teammates but he knows they're doing it while holding their breath. He reaches his room and the damn is about to break, he hasn't been held in years, he feels so cold and empty, was he really so terrifying, no one would-
"Sergeant Barnes?"
A gentle voice calls for him, forcing him to swallow the lump in his throat. He knows that voice, mustering his best smile as he turns around to find Tony's lab assistant with a cup of chamomile tea in his mug and a file with the mission report he was supposed to fill out.
"Everyone's filling their reports in the conference room, I figured you'd rather have some privacy so I thought I'd bring it to you" You give him the same warm smile you grace everyone with, handing him the steaming cup, "and of course, your favourite"
It's too much. Normally it wouldn't be but he's never given such kindness but he always gets it from you. You're so unbelievably affectionate to everyone and he really doesn't feel worthy but today he needs it so he graciously accepts the tea and file with a soft thank you.
"and call me Bucky, doll"
You stiffen at the slight crack in his voice, frowning when he keeps his eyes trained to the floor. It wasn't unusual for Bucky to keep to himself but you catch his reddened nose and glassy baby blues and it breaks your heart.
He opens the door to enter his room ready to drown in a lonely storm when that voice calls again. Surely he was dreaming. He sets down his things, turning to find you still at his door.
"Bucky?" You enter his room, standing before him when he doesn't ask you to leave, "Are you okay?"
He doesn't trust himself, nodding and desperately blinking back tears. He wished you'd leave, he wished you'd stay, he wished he could just tell you what he needed, his hands fisted into balls by his side, he should just suck it up, what was he expecting-
"Come here" You whisper, your hand coming to cradle the back of his head, bringing it to rest into your neck where he can let go, your arms wrapping around his body.
Bucky doesn't get a chance to realize what's happening because as soon as he feels your touch the first sob escapes. He's hidden himself away in your hold, his tears wetting your skin with no remorse. He clings onto you like a lifeline while you coo and comfort him, playing with his hair and rubbing his back.
You don't let go, allowing him to cry for as long as he needs. Even after his cries turn into sniffles, you comfort him, pressing a kiss to his temple while he holds you extra tight.
When he's finally ready to let go, albeit reluctantly, he's instantly shused from trying to apologize. You don't ask questions asking what happened or why he was upset. It really didn't matter. You just knew. Bucky whispers a thank you, making a mental note to get you some flowers to properly showed you how much he appreciated it.
Of course you'd always just know when he needed it so he'd thank you again with coffee.
Dinner.
Dinner again.
Eventually, a ring.
You always knew what he needed.
A hug.
That was all.
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look at me t.s.
Pairing | Thomas Shelby x Female reader
Summary | When Mrs. Shelby requests Tommy in the room with her for the birth of their first daughter everyone is shocked. Men aren't supposed to be in the room with their wives as they give birth, it's just not how it is supposed to be... well all men aren't Thomas Shelby.
Warnings | Mentions of childbirth, pain obviously she's literally giving birth, maybe ooc Tommy? idk. Reader is a little mean to her doctors but she's in pain cut her some slack. MDNI because I said so. Foul language.
Word Count | .06k
~This is loosely based off of the scene in Queen Charlotte when they won't let George into the room to see Charlotte. If you know what I'm talking about I love you~
All dialogue in italics is spoken in Romani.
"Mrs Shelby forgive me but husbands aren't usually in the room during the birth" The doctor spoke hesitantly as his eyes flicked nervously around the room.
Everyone seemed to speak hesitantly around her. I guess that was what you get when you become a Shelby. Everyone around you is constantly terrified to tell you no or disagree. It was like being royalty in a sort of fucked up way.
Polly Gray cut the doctor a look as she walked over to you and put a reassuring hand on your forehead.
"Polly please" you cried in pain "I need him here." Nothing from the old wive tales could compare to the pain you were feeling. You had been pushing for hours now with Polly at your side but nothing was working. Your daughter simply just would not budge. Polly had made the comment early on about her already showing traits from her father.
"I don't care what usually happens. If Tommy Shelby is not in this room in the next five minutes, I will personally end you." You spoke with a hiss pointing at the doctor.
You weren't usually this aggressive, but given the fact you were in pain and used to getting what you wanted all the time, the circumstances were different.
Polly sighed as she looked down at you and began to head out of the room.
"What's wrong, is she okay?" Tommy spoke immediately as Polly exited the doors of your room.
"She's requesting you Thomas" Polly spoke in Romani so as to not alert the other doctors of your request.
"She wants me in the room with her?" He spoke hesitantly as he looked towards the door.
Polly nodded and Tommy immediately started towards the door.
"I'm sorry Mr. Shelby but I cannot allow you to be in the room." The doctor outside of your door spoke as his eyes flicked down to the floor to avoid Tommy's sharp gaze.
"Tell me, doctor, do you like your job?" Tommy spoke with a raised brow as he waited for his response.
When he didn't reply Tommy bent down to reach his gaze "Hmm? I asked you a question doctor, do you like your job?"
"Yes. Yes I like my job" He murmured still avoiding the sharp blue eyes that were currently staring daggers at the man.
"Well if you intend on staying alive long enough to keep it, I suggest you move out of my way." Tommy stood up straight and tilted his head towards the door.
The doctor nodded and stepped aside, letting Tommy enter the room. "If I hear one more word from anyone about my presence in this room, I will have a peaky blinder on each and every one of your doorsteps first thing tomorrow morning" Tommy spoke before anyone could protest.
"Tommy" you gasped as you finally laid eyes on your husband. "I've been asking for you"
"I know, I know. But I'm here now eh? I'm here now." Tommy bent down to give your forehead a kiss as you winced.
"I cant do this Tommy" you cried "I want it to be over"
Tommy's heart broke at the sight of you. His wife. He wished he could just take all of your pain away and keep it for himself.
Tommy bent down to kneel at the side of your bed as he cradled your face in his hands.
"Look at me. Hey, Look at me, love." He spoke softly as you turned your head to gaze at him with teary eyes.
"You can do this. I know you can. You are the most headstrong women I know, and ill be damned if you give up now." You giggled at his lighthearted teasing and nodded.
"And you don't really have a choice love. This baby has got to come out in one way or another." He smirked at you as you rolled your eyes at your husband.
"Okay Mrs. Shelby its time to push" Your doctor spoke as Tommy placed a kiss on the hand he had ahold of and nodded at you.
"Let's meet our daughter Mrs. Shelby."
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giggling so bad imagining R shaving her bush and sevika being like oh my god do u hate me?!?! what did I do?!?! how can I make it up to u I'm sorry pleeeeeease never do this again we can talk it out next time please đđ
LMAOOO
men and minors dni
last month, your period crept up on you, and you woke up half convinced you'd been stabbed in your sleep.
you and sevika didn't even try to salvage the sheets, just throwing them in the trash before re-making the bed. your pajamas were ruined, and, grossest of all, your crotch was a sticky, bloody mess.
so, this month to avoid any more incidents, you've been sleeping on a towel in anticipation, wearing a pad to bed just in case, and... you've shaved.
you haven't shaved in years. you and sevika are both bush enjoyers, and neither of you have ever felt the need to take a razor to your pits or legs since you started dating. finding a razor to use is almost impossible, but you manage to find one buried in the far back of your bathroom closet.
you feel so... cold. and smooth. you're hyper-aware of the feeling of your underwear rubbing on your skin. it's strange. not unpleasant, but strange. with one last look down your pants at your hair-less pussy, you shrug and crawl into bed.
you think that's the end of it.
you go to sleep easily, waking up about an hour later when sevika crawls in bed behind you. she kisses you gently and you hum, wrapping your arms around her before you both fall asleep.
in the morning, though, you wake up to a horrified gasp.
"what!? what is it, is someone breaking in?" you ask, sitting up in bed and rubbing your eyes. as you pull your hands away, though, you don't find sevika sitting beside you where she should be. she's hovering on top of you on all fours, a horrified look on her face. "sevika, what?!" you ask, your heart pounding in your chest.
"you shaved?!" sevika cries. you blink, your mind still half asleep, before finally looking down at your crotch.
you burst into laughter as you do. sevika's pulled your pants down your thighs in your sleep, clearly trying to give you a nice wake up call, and she's just now seeing your bare cunt. "sevika, for fuck's sake, i thought something horrible happened!" you laugh.
"something horrible has happened! why the fuck did you shave!?" sevika asks, her eyes wide and heartbroken. "d-did i piss you off, or something? whatever it is, baby, i promise i'll make it up to yo--"
"sevika!" you cackle. sevika pouts as she looks up from your pussy to your face. "baby, i shaved because my period's on the way and i didn't wanna deal with the mess again."
sevika's looking at you like you've lost your mind. "wha-- fuck that!" she whines. you chuckle. "what the fuck am i supposed to do when i'm goin' down on you now? my nose is gonna get all cold, i won't have anything to run my fingers through..." sevika looks seriously upset. you giggle just a little at the absurdity of the situation, then reach up to cup her face.
"it'll grow back, baby." you promise. sevika frowns.
"but then you'll just shave it off again!"
"no, i won't babe." you say. "not if you feel this strongly about it. plus, it's a lotta work-- i was scared to death i was gonna cut one of my lips off or something."
sevika chuckles. "thank you." she sighs, kissing your lips. you grin.
"thank you. y'know, most people have to deal with the opposite-- their partners forcin' them to shave before any intimacy at all... i'm glad you prefer the option that requires the least amount of work possible for me."
sevika giggles and kisses you. "i am pretty amazing, aren't i?" she asks. you nod.
"the fuckin' best." you agree.
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Hihiii
Nephite when an other follower/ omega tryed to get with us?
yandere omega cultist nephite
cw;; religion, cults, omegaverse, violence
nephite is the least physically violent of the ocs ive posted so far but that doesn't take away from how scary he can be. he's so loyal to the church he has a lot of power for an omega.
y/n: do you know what happened to him?
nephite: he received divine punishment ^.^
y/n: right. i forgot you're crazy again.
nephite can't even breathe when he sees one of the slightly younger omegas flirting with you at a potluck. you're completely unreceptive to the advances of course. but he can't help but hear these words in his ears.
"alphas always prefer young omegas"
right now you were ignoring this harlot but for how long? how long before he became old and undesirable? nephite chewed his thumb nail until he broke the skin, only actually stopping because his mother pulled his hand away. she scolded him gently as she cleaned up his booboo but he couldn't look at her, he couldn't hear her. his sister noticed and teased him a little for getting so worked up over a random omega.
they were right. it was silly. he stuffed it down but he still spent the whole night attached to your hip.
it was fine.
but that omega didn't stop. if you left the house that omega would come find you and immediately start talking to you. his hands would press against your chest, his arms would wrap around one of your own, he would lean his body into you every chance he got. nephite's usually bright eyes would go dead the moment he saw the younger omega. what was he supposed to say? that filth never did it when he was right next to you, always waiting for you to be alone. and its not like it got more suggestive than just flirting. but it was driving nephite insane.
one day nephite was holding a sacred texts study group for omegas at your home. he had been so excited to be the host for this meeting, he spent the whole day making snacks for it! only to find, to his horror, that omega also arrived. you had decided to stay out of the living room while his group was going on but that just meant that horrible harlot could really get you alone! nephite had tried so hard to watch him like a hawk but he'd also gotten too into the discussion with the others. he never even realized when that omega disappeared from the group.
after everyone left he headed to your shared bedroom, excited to tell you about how it went. his hands pressed the door and his eyes immediately went dead. you were sitting on the bed with that omega, just talking. you had been showing him a book you'd been reading recently. his hand was on your knee. his shirt was unbuttoned. nephite felt dizzy, delirious with all the dark emotions bubbling in his stomach. he thought about killing that harlot right here, cutting off the filthy hands that dared to touch you.
you snapped him out of it, asking if group was over and then saying that harlot should leave. you escorted him to the door like a real gentleman. you asked him what was bothering him, if his group had gone poorly. nephite had practically tackled you into the bed, wrapping his arms around your waist and burying his head in your chest. he cried well into the night about all his insecurities and worries about you leaving him. and with every tear there was your reassuring hand in his hair, soothing him gently.
but that wasn't enough. the next day he went to confession with a pair of his frilly underwear stuffed in his pocket. he told the pastor the truth. mostly. he exaggerated the amount of adultery that harlot had really done so far. the pastor seemed to know he was being lied to but he trusted that nephite would only be bringing someone to his attention if they were a filthy sinner. the frilly underwear were icing on the cake. he told the pastor that he found them in the sinner's home along with a plan to seduce you.
they made a big show of dragging that sinner through the compound. wherever he was going he would never be coming back from. he caught nephite's eyes as he was dragged crying and screaming through the street. nephite held your arm tighter a wicked smile on his face just long enough for that foolish sinner to catch.
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â "What the fuck." You started at the merman who wriggled around for space. His eyes looked at you in fear as he saw you, before a blush had spread across his face.
Up until 30 seconds ago, you had lived a normal life, well, except for the obscene amount of work you were stressed out with. So you hopped on the boat your parents had gifted you some years ago and sailed into the sea. The feel of the ocean breeze hitting your face was a familiar sensation to you.
This was because your parents were fishermen and loved to eat seafood, and naturally, you had gravitated towards seafood, but with prices these days and your never-ending workload, it didn't allow you to do anything without setting you back on your tight deadlines. Until today.
You had gotten a whole week of paid vacation because a coworker was threatening to bring them to court for a long list of harassment. So they gave the people who worked the most a one week paid vacation. Though, to her, it wasn't enough, so you're getting a paid vacation week while they are still going to get sued. Whatever, its their fault either way.
Anyways, how did you reel in a merman that shouldn't even exist? Frankly, you don't know either. You had accidentally started to daydream, which turned into you not realizing something was caught, so instinctively, you were able to reel in a merman.
"H-huuuumann?" His deep moss green eyes stared at up at you with interest whilst you nearly got blinded by the shimmering gleem of his scales that were scattered across his cheeks. He stopped his advancements towards you until it was difficult to hold up his neck to see you.
"Erm... sorry for catching you, I was daydreaming. I'll unhook the fish hook attached to you..." You apologized and went down to unhook him, only for him to pull down your pants and underwear down, making you fall on the bench below you and stuffing his face in your genitals.
"Hey! W-what are you doing?" You pushed his face away, to which he pouted to. He sat there for a while as you tried to push him off the boat, to no avail.
"I... Accceppt thhis marrriaage!" He excitedly said as he tugged on your pants to gently pull it off again, but you held on tightly to your pants.
"What marriage? I didn't propose to you?" You evaded from his pulling hands in confusion.
"Whennn youuu reeeeledd mmeee inn dummmyy!" He slurred his words once more. "Shtop! I waant too tasstte you firrst beeforrre you tassteeee mee!" He huffed before his nails turned into sharp claws that shreaded your pants, then pulled down your underwear again and happily stuffing his face and licking your crotch with his tongue that felt rough.
Once more, you tried to move away but only ended up moaning at the feeling. Your face was slightly hot as you looked away but was swiftly pulled back in for a kiss, tasting your own fluids.
"Ah... finally... now it's your turn, cutie pie. We have to go to my hometown to get married <3"
"WHAT!?!? Firstly, no! Secondly, i will drown!"
"... Who said you can say no? When you reeled me, it was akin to a marriage proposal. Also, that's why you suck my dick and kiss me <333"
"WHAT--"
Was supposed to be posted yesterday, but when i saved a portion of it, i didn't see that i was save so i went back in to edit it to see what's rong before i saved it and for a slpilt second i saw the rest of it before it saved, so i lost majority of my work.
So now it looks like tjis. Womp womp. I think tjis is an afab reader? But i tried to make it gn as possible but i wannted a weird ass mermaid culture where to speak another's language, you gotta eat them out/suck them off before kissing person to speak. At first i wanted him to just kiss in order to get the language js like starfire but i was like,, so what do i do with him tryna eat you out??,, then boom yeahh.
Also, yo quero voy en me casaaaaaa *cries pathetically* No me gusta EspaĂąol :((((((( not proofread. L
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Satisfaction Feels Like a Distant Memory
Chapter Three of I Can't Help Myself
Summary: Your mounting attraction to Spencer Reid pushes you to the edge, turning begrudging friendship to deep hatred when he finally shows up on your doorstep. He's the only thing that can out you out of your misery even as you sink further into it.
Warnings: 18+ MINORS DNI, hate sex, rough sex, argument as foreplay, oral (f recieving) and face fucking, fingering, multiple orgasms, overstimulation, forced orgasms, "forced" submission, creampie, p in v penetrative sex, etc.
A/N: I've had about as much sleep as the reader in this fic has for the last week, but HERE IT IS! Chapter Three 𼰠You may need a bottle of water on standby, or at least a hand fan, because this one gets a bit heated....
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You hesitated in front of your office door, which you supposed was going to become a bad habit of yours now. You tried lying to yourself, that nothing was different now, that you weren't attracted to him in a completely stupid way, but you still stood frozen in front of your own office door.Â
Frozen and horny.Â
Shit.Â
You mentally went through a list of the worst things that could happen if you went in.Â
1. He was there.Â
2. He wasn't there.Â
3. He was there, and he touched you again, and you moaned.Â
4. He was there, and he didn't touch you again, but you still moaned.Â
5. He was there, and you threw yourself at him immediately because why wouldn't you when you'd seen what you could be working with the night before? Fuck moaning once, moaning multiple times as he pushed you against the bookshelf would-Â
âAre you gonna go in, or are you just going to fondle the door handle?â He asked from behind you. From too close behind you.Â
You turned, keeping the doorknob in your grin, and immediately flattened yourself against the door as he took a step closer.Â
So close. He was so fucking close and it was suddenly all you could think of.Â
âW-What?â
âYou know, the CDC warns that door handles should be washed every 20 to 40 hours To prevent bacteria like Escherchia coli and Staphylococcus aureus from-â You ignored his words, drowning everything else out as you tried to dampen the fire burning under your skin.
âCock?â You said, all attempts obviously not working.Â
âStaphylococcus, yes. It can cause Adenovirus, Rhinovirus, not to mention-âÂ
âOkay! Okay, Spencer. Taking my hand off the handle now.âÂ
Finally, you twisted it and walked backwards into your room, walking backwards a few steps before your foot caught on a stray pile of books.Â
âWhat the-â you cried, waiting for the impact of your landing as you swung out your arms frantically for purchase, screwing your eyes shut as you found none.Â
Instead, you found an arm snaked around your waist, another wrapping your hip tight as Spencer Reid cradled your body to his own.Â
âThanks,â you breathed out, not even hearing the words yourself for how much air was in them. How was it possible to expel air and hold your breath at the same time? Because that was how it felt being in his arms: at once a sigh and a stopping of all bodily functions barring want.Â
âI thought this was your office, Y/N. Surely you should know the layout by now.â
Moment over. You pushed at his chest to stand upright, and he stepped backwards, removing his hands from your person.Â
âVery funny. We both know these are your books. Setting traps for me now, Spencer?âÂ
You moved around the piles of books again as he flicked the light switch, moving the opposite way around your desks, before meeting you again next to yours.Â
âYou're usually more observant than this. Is there something wrong today?âÂ
âWhat, like Adenovirus or Rhinovirus?âÂ
âNo, like somethingâŚâ he searched for the right words, pace slowing as he tried not to scare you away by talking with you like this.
âLike something on your mind.âÂ
You snorted, leaning down to switch on your computer, and also to avoid his eye contact. Unfortunately, academic curiosity had gotten to you in the last few weeks, and you'd read some of his psychological papers. You knew exactly what it was the BAU was apparently so good at, and you didn't want him to know that you'd imagined him balls deep in you hours before.Â
âNot friends, Spencer. If there's something I need to talk about, I'll talk to a friend,â you said, standing straight again and turning to him again. You still avoided eye contact, but it didn't matter. His eyes weren't on your face but angled further down, like he'd been checking out your ass as you bent over or something.Â
No. No, you weren't going down that train of thought.Â
âOr even better, my therapist.â You were planning on the words being a bit more playful, but your voice came out deeper than you expected it, more gravely somehow.Â
Your bedroom voice, you were using your stupid fucking bedroom voice on Spencer Reid.Â
You cut yourself off again before you said anything else. Before he touched you or didn't touch you, and you got to test your earlier theory about which would be the more demeaning reaction.Â
âI have class in ten. Clean up before I get back,â you ordered, and you felt the hairs on the back of your neck stand up when he replied.Â
âI don't take direction well, Y/N.âÂ
No, you didn't think he would. Neither did you though.
For a week, you tiptoed around the man, your words sharp, but your body weak to him.Â
By day, you were hurling insults back and forth, messing up his papers and screwing with him via bookshelf again.Â
âYOURâŚFLYâŚISâŚ.OPEN.âÂ
âVERYâŚ.MATURE.â
âMADEâŚYOUâŚLOOKâŚTHOUGH.â
âBUSYâŚ.LOOKINGâŚATâŚOTHERâŚ.THINGS.â
âLIKEâŚTHEâŚUNDERGRADSâŚTHROWINGâŚTHEMSELVESâŚATâŚYOUâŚ?â
âLIKEâŚTHEâŚPROFESSORâŚI'M APPARENTLYâŚDATINGâÂ
âVery fucking funny, Spencer,â you sighed at the last message, throwing the books off the shelf and pilling them up on the floor.Â
âDon't even for a second entertain the idea of making that gossip a reality.âÂ
He grinned at you from behind his desk.Â
âOkay.â
âDon't even - don't even think about it,â you said, stepping over his desk and poking at his chest as his smile deepened.
âHeard.âÂ
âI'm serious, Spencer, don't-âÂ
âYou've thought about it.â You froze in shock at his words, as if your blood wasn't sure whether to run cold or burn hot and fast.Â
âWhat?â You spat the words at him, unable to stop them coming out any other way.Â
âYou've thought about entertaining the gossip. You've thought about it a lot.âÂ
You needed to deny him, but he was right. By day, you tried to torment him, but by night, he did torment you. A week of wet dreams, of imagining him taking you over every inch of your office, of sleepless rest and failed orgams, and you could not escape.Â
âNo,â you said with a whisper, shaking your head and trying again even as your voice cracked from the lie and your body's cry for pleasure, for this man.Â
âNo, I havenât- I don't-â You took a deep breath, but you knew it was no good, as his hand grabbed yours and flattened it against his chest.Â
âYour pupils are dilated, your pulse is heightened, and your legs are practically clamped shut. Your mouth is dry, and I'm not sure if you've noticed yet, Y/N, but you're shaking.âÂ
âAll signs of anger, Spencer, as you're well aware.âÂ
He let go of your wrist and sat back in his seat, just out of reach of you again.Â
âShame,â he whispered under his breath, nearly low enough that you didn't catch it, as he flipped open his book and continued whatever the fuck it was he even did in this office.Â
You ignored it, anger really flooding you now, warring the heat of arousal that was firmly settled in your body for dominance.Â
The anger won out.Â
You grabbed books from your desk, files, and papers from the side table by the couch and your laptop from your desk and left the room quickly.Â
You slammed the door, and you didn't look back, knowing that if you did, you'd see his winning smirk staring right back at you.
You marched yourself right to the staff administration office and put in for a week of leave. Spencer had one more week of work at the university, and then he would go back to being a regular FBI agent.Â
Your paths wouldn't cross because you wouldn't let them cross, not when it meant for certain that you would give in.
You spent the week working to distract yourself from work. You finished books for your next semester courses, highlighting the better articles and essays to use, going through each bibliography to find better sources if they weren't good enough. You wrote more of a research paper you didn't have time to think about with so much going on. You corresponded with students, with TAs, with the other professors who wanted to know where you were.Â
Okay, that was a lie. You aired the professors, but you did look out for any inboxes from him. Surprisingly, there were none.Â
You spent a week throwing yourself head first into your work, and still, each night, you felt his phantom touch on you. No matter how exhausted, your brain still co jured images of his hands grasping your wrists, pushing them above your head and forcing his cock into you, his lips biting against your skin, the fire of his kisses leaving scars where they trailed down.Â
You were running on three hours of sleep per night, sure, but at least you were as far as you could possibly get from the man ruining your life.Â
You poured yourself a glass of wine the next Sunday, knowing that when you went back to work the next day, he'd be gone.
You wrapped yourself in blankets and put everything else off for the day, ordering food and eating it and not moving as you worked your way through boxes of pizza.Â
It was when you finished your first glass and went to pour yourself another that there was a furious pounding at your door.Â
âY/N, I know you're in there, open the door.â His hand sounded again, and you nearly dropped the glass at the sound of Apencer Reid's voice.Â
Your body acted alone, immediately following his directions as you damn near tripped over your own feet to open the door for him.Â
Throughout all of your arguments, all of the quips you'd thrown at him, every stupid little thing you'd done to get under his skin, you had not once seen Spencer Reid looking this angry.Â
His brow was furrowed uncomfortably, as if it were frozen in place. Gone was his perpetual smirk.Â
âSpencer, what the fuck a-âÂ
âThoughtless. Careless. Do you even know what you've done?â He snapped at you, stepping into your apartment and closing the door behind himself as he immediately walked into your space and began touching things.
âStop! Fucking stop it, Spencer!â You said grabbing his arm and pulling him around to face you. He brushed you off quickly and worked his way through papers you'd left on your coffee table.Â
âNo. You stormed out over a week ago, you blocked my number, you did not answer any of my emails-âÂ
âI didn't get any emails,â you spit back, pushing yourself between him and your things now, bodies so close they were touching.Â
âThen you blocked my email, too. You don't even know what I'm looking for or the damage you could have done, do you?â His hands were on you then, not threateningly, as you'd expect, his anger still burning through him if his shaking voice had anything to say for it.Â
His hands stroked up your sides and back down again, smoothing away your need to think.Â
âMy files. My team sent me a file. It was on the coffee table, and you took it with you when you left. The case is ongoing, and I'm flying out tomorrow, and without some of the classified information in that file, we will be at a disadvantage. Our odds of catching our unsub fall from 83% to 47% without all of the pertinent information.âÂ
Your breath hitched as he leaned in closer.Â
âSo yes, I'm going to go through your things, and if you're a good girl, you'll root through with me and help me find it.âÂ
He stepped away then, and you held your tongue. As much as you hated him, he was right. You knew what he did, you knew who he was and to trust him not to lie to you about his chances without this information.Â
âThe files on the coffee table are research notes, everything I took from the office is in that case over there,â you said pointing at a bag still where you'd dropped it by the door a week earlier.Â
He walked to it and rooted through it quickly before finding the file he obviously needed and letting some of the tension out of his shoulders.Â
âYou're probably glad to see the back of me, right?â He said, laughing bitterly as he turned back around to you.Â
âObviously not as happy as you are,â you spat back, stepping back over to him.Â
âIf you ever speak to me that way again,â you started, spitting at him in the most threatening voice you could muster. âIt won't be a fucking unsub that ruins your life.âÂ
âAnd how are you going to manage that, Y/N?â He said, stepping closer to you until he had you backed up against the wall, trapped in by his bigger frame, using it to his advantage to intimidate.Â
âHow will you manage to ruin my life,â he said, his voice softer as he finished his sentence, but not by much. âWhen you shake with just every time I get close?âÂ
âThis is not lust,â you growled the words out, but try as you damn might, you were shaking, vibrating even.Â
âThen what is it?âÂ
âHatred, dislike, loathing, detestation, abhorrence, fuck Spencer, you can pick up a thesaurus yourself and find out.â
âYeah. Okay. I'll believe your lies for a second.â He walked away, he was walking away but the fire was ringing in your ears and you needed him to stay fucking put so he could take it all.Â
âYou're a jackass.â
âOriginal.âÂ
âYou slammed into my life, expecting me to bend to your will and be at the mercy of your needs, your wants. Your office space, your fucking case files, your job-âÂ
âNone of that was my choice.âÂ
âAnd it wasn't mine either, but at least I fucking left you alone. I spent the week in this apartment and left you the fuck alone, and you couldn't even allow me the same.â
His focus was back on you again, but you refused to be backed against a wall this time.Â
âWhat did you say?âÂ
âYou will not let me know peace. I have lost my security, my patience, my fucking sanity with each word you have said, my peace of mind, my sleep, my fucking sanity, Spencer.â Your chest was heaving, touching his with each exhale as he too held his place in front of you. He was so close, you'd practically spat the words directly into his mouth.Â
âHow is that my fault?â He whispered, voice still dripping with disdain even as his hands again wrapped themselves in your hair, and he tugged your head back, baring your neck to him as he leaned down into you.Â
âHow do you know that you're not doing the same to me?âÂ
You refused to answer, though, meeting his eyes for one last second before you grabbed his hair in your hands and yanked him down to your mouth.Â
It wasn't so much a kiss as a battle for dominance, each trying to torture a surrender from the other with clashing tongues and teeth.Â
You made the first move, but he was obviously expecting it, and he didn't even pause before launching his own attack, finally pushing past your strong defence to walk you back to the sofa you'd abandoned earlier.Â
His tongue still lashed against yours as you retreated, refusing to give up your upper hand even as you moaned into his touch. The couch hit the back of your knees, buckling, and you silently cursed your lack of sleep for leaving you so unstable right now.Â
No, that wasn't true. It was him. He had left you so unstable, moving between happy and playful to angry and wrathful in the space of a week without you, and you'd been denying yourself the ability to even entertain any of this happening. Now that it was, your body was unprepared, totally at his mercy, as he pushed you to your back and pushed up your skirt.Â
âYou're already so fucking wet,â he groaned slipping two fingers inside you as you moaned around him, no longer capable of thought. This was the moment, this was when he was going to make you submit to him finally.Â
Instead, he dropped to his knees and you gasped as his to guess found your sweet cunt and he began sucking to your clit.Â
You were on fire, skin scorched from the inside out, spreading in waves from your pussy to the furthest regions of your body.Â
With one hand, he spread your thighs further apart and pushed his entire face further into your cunt, tongue pushing inside right by his fingers, nose pushed right up against your clit as he didn't relent. Every movement was another curse falling from your mouth.Â
âShit, Spencer, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck,â you whimpered, hips rocking back and forth as you tried to fuck his face, begging for more.Â
To your surprise, he didn't keep your hips still but let you keep riding his face, riding his fingers as you chased your first orgasm. Â
It came quickly, overwhelming you with the impact, jolting through your body like a lightning bolt as he let your hips shake and crash across his tongue.Â
When he finally pulled his face away, it was glistening, and he wasted no time shoving his tongue back in your mouth. His message was clear - he may have let you take whatever pleasure you'd wanted with him, but he was still the one in control.Â
You trailed kisses along his cheeks, neck, shoulders as he divested himself of clothing, shirt, belt, pants, ripping at yours to free your body as well, until the two of you were only left with underwear and you'd picked up every last drop of your cum left on his skin.
âOn your back, now,â he said, and you complied. You spread your legs, and rubbed at your still wet cunt, jolting as he finally lined himself up with your cunt.Â
But he didn't push in yet. Instead he wrapped two arms under your knees and pulled you closer, so his cock rested over the top of your stomach, and leaned down, his face hovering inches over your own, holding himself up with a forearm rested just above your head.Â
âYou see that?â He said, glancing down. âThat is how much I am going to fill you. That is how deep I am going to ease into you. That is how far I am going to go to claim you. You can take it like a good girl, right?âÂ
âJust shut up and put your cock inside me, Spencer.âÂ
âYou're so fucking pushy for a submissive little slut,â he said, smiling finally.Â
âI am not a-â you started to protest, but he slid inside of your hot cunt and you lost the ability to focus.Â
âNot a what, Y/N? Speak up,â thrusting shallowly as your cunt grabbed him and held tight.Â
âI'm not a- SPENCER!â You screamed his name as he pulled out quickly, thrusting into you again with a speed and strength that had you wrapping your arms and legs around him tightly, fighting for him to stay right there deep inside.Â
âNot a sub? Y/N, you're whimpering and drooling right now. You're three seconds away from begging for my cock, why the fuck can you not be honest with yourself?âÂ
âFuckâŚyou,â you said between moans as he rutted into you like a beast. He wasn't man anymore, bit monster, and he was claiming you inch by disgustingly perfect inch.Â
âLet go. Let me take care of you, let me control you. Come on, baby, you know how good it would feel,â he said, before ducking his head and wrapping his tongue around a nipple.Â
You screamed his name again, but you still tried to resist.Â
âCome on, Y/N. Show me. Cum on my cock.âÂ
For a brief moment, you'd thought you'd resisted the demand. But then your brain faded, and your nails cut into his back like daggers as your body followed his commands and you came on his cock for a second time that night.Â
âPerfect. One more, you can do one more,â he said, kissing your lips and lifting himself back up so he was sitting on his knees as he again picked up the pace.Â
You mumbled his name over and over again as he fucked out all of the frustration in your body. Every thing either of you had said or done melted away in the glow of pleasure, your body buzzing from the feeling of him taking ownership of you.Â
âOne more, Y/N. One more, you need to cum one more time.â
âI can't, I can't I can't I can't, Spencer I can't I really can't,â you said, voice growing pathetically whiny as the tears sprang to your eyes and you choked back a sob.Â
âYes you can, one more. Together, we can do it together,â he said, groaning as you clenched around him.âÂ
He claimed your mouth again, his hand wrapping around your throat as he cut off your air supply for a second, then two, then three, as your ears buzzed and you finally slipped over the edge again.Â
But this time, as promised, you weren't the only one caught in the pain of pleasure. Spencer collapsed on top of you as his dick spurted inside you, holding you close as he unloaded everything he had into you.Â
He sat there, warming his cock as he lazily kissed open mouth kisses into every inch of your shoulders, collar bone and chest. Everywhere he could reach without pulling out of you and leaving you there.Â
After weeks of no sleep because of him, it was his soft lips that finally enticed you into the hands of the sandman, his weight a comfort as you closed your eyes.Â
When you woke in your bed, clean and clothed, he was gone, and so was every sign that he'd ever been there in the first place.Â
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God Complex | Lestat x Reader x Louis
ࡠyou want out, realizing your little family isnât as perfect as you thought, but they would never let you slip away so easily.
i definitely went overboard đ
âLestat, you donât have to do this,â Louis stressed.
âShe has to learn, itâs either this, or we are exposed,â Lestat said, shutting the coffin. Under the pebbles you laid, crying, begging for forgiveness. Despite your attempts to break free, the coffin wouldnât budge.
âLouis, please, Lestat, Iâm sorry,â you screamed, your voice falling on deaf ears, as he shut the door of the basement, leaving you alone at the bottom of the townhouse.
âNeither of you are to let her out, a few days will teach her a needed lesson,â he pointed at the two. Louis looked distressed, knowing his companion was right, despite his desire to argue. While Claudia frowned, saddened by your cries, but knew better than to go against her fatherâs words.
âIâm sorry,â you kept crying. If only you could take it back. This was your second time acting so careless, and you knew better than to think Lestat would let you do this a third.
From the moment Lestat turned you, you were a wildflower. He loved how animalistic you became, while Louis enjoyed how sweet you remained. Claudia was happy to finally have someone new in their lives, other than the two.
You were exceptional at hunting, and Lestat became lenient, oftentimes letting you wander. Youâd find your meal, and quickly and efficiently discard the mess. However, when the arrogant salesman came into the bar, speaking to everyone as if they were beneath him, your tongue tingled at the sight.
The thought of him submitting and begging for mercy turned you on beyond comprehension. Biting your lip, you stood, approaching him, intentionally bumping his shoulder. His hand went to your waist, as he began to apologize, while his eyes not so discreetly roamed.
âGarret Anderson, darling,â he introduced, as you shook his hand.
âHi,â you smiled, mischievously.
âNot him, choose someone else,â you heard Louisâs voice. Usually, youâd listen, but you couldnât this time, not when the smell of his blood made you feel feral in the best way.
âWould you like to dance-
âCome with me,â you ignored him, grabbing his hand to pull him out of the establishment. He grinned, thinking he had won a prize when he was walking straight into the trap.
Pushing him into the dim alley, you slipped your tongue into his mouth, pressing your body against his own.
âOh, I donât think I got your nameâ
âYou donât worry about my name, sugar, just focus on my voice,â you told him, as he looked into your eyes.
âOk,â he nodded, hypnotized.
âY/n, Lestat doesnât want you to choose him,â Claudia said, as you bare your teeth.
âItâs too late,â you spoke, biting his neck, drinking his life away.
âPlease,â you heard him inaudible beg, his grip loosening from your arm, as his form began to weaken.
âWhat part of not him did you not understand?â Lestat asked, snappily, standing behind you, as you released the man, watching his corpse sink to the wet ground.
âWas I supposed to play with my food?â You pouted, the action usually worked, but this time he kept the harsh gaze.
âThis man is related to Tom Anderson and the last person he has been seen with, was you,â he said angrily.
âI didn't know, and I always clean up after myself,â you defended.
âThat isnât the point, you get the order to choose another and you still chose to disobey, putting all of our lives at risk, again,â Lestat said, trying to keep his composure, feeling himself about to yell.
âWe can talk about this when we get home, Claudia and I will clean up,â Louis said, hoping to de-escalate the situation.
However, after the body was burned, Lestat continued to yell, before deciding to bury you in the rock-filled coffin, as a punishment. ďżź
You werenât sure how long you were locked away, starving. It could have only been days, but on an empty stomach, it felt like weeks. You cried for too many hours, begging, trying to communicate with Louis and Claudia - but no one ever came. No one would come, youâd be left here to starve to death until Lestat was ready to release you.
You began to dream, imagining yourself on all kinds of adventures. Traveling to different countries, tasting the different people, none of which Lestat planned on doing soon. He made the rules and you all went along, occasionally finding compromise. Finally, after what felt like forever, the coffin was opened.
Louis worriedly pulled you out, Claudia dusting the rocks off of you. Lestat didnât say a word, standing behind the two, watching as they tended to you. Slowly approaching you, he placed his hand under you jaw, making you look up.
âI hope youâve learned your lesson,â he said, before making his way upstairs.
âY/n,â you jumped, snapping out of the trance as Louis opened the coffin, holding his hand out for you to grab.
âSorry,â you smiled sheepishly, as he grinned, helping you out.
âItâs alright, why donât you get dressed, and weâll be waiting on you,â he winked, leaving you to change.
As you made your way down the stairs, you kept your eyes down, feeling his gaze.
Claudia was first to swing the door open, excitedly skipping out of the house - Louis not too far behind. Gulping, you went to follow him, when Lestat grabbed your waist, stopping you.
âYou look nice, ma chèrie,â he complimented.
âThank you,â you smiled, rushing to join Louis.
You didnât wander, staying close with the group, choosing the easiest target. Youâd always preferred your meal flamboyant, the loudest in the room always had the sweetest blood. However, you were too afraid to upset Lestat, ending up in the cramped coffin again.
Cleaning your mouth, you sat on one of the many benches in the park. You were still hungry, starving actually. The pathetic excuse of a human was no where near filling. As Lestat and Louis approached, their meals close behind like lambs being led to the slaughter, you got up.
Entering the house, you were about to follow Claudia upstairs, when Lestat grabbed your hand, leading you back down.
âI want you to be more vigilant about prey, not neglect and starve yourself, come, we have a plus one,â he told you, before announcing to the trio of men youâd be joining them.
âDo you think there is more to life than New Orleans?â You asked your coworker, Carol.
âI ainât got time to think about that Y/n, Iâm 24 and already a widow with an infant,â she huffed, wiping the table.
Opening your eyes you stared up at the coffin, trying to think back. You didnât remember too much about your mortal life, not even your family. You worked at a bar when you met Louis and Lestat, both incredibly charming. You were interesting to them, this wasnât anything new for Lestat, he had no problem admiring multiple people. Louis on the other hand, was surprised by his interest. You were easy on the eyes with the kindest soul, lighting up the room with your presence.
You ended up getting pneumonia and despite taking the needed medication, you began to succumb. On the brink of death, you saw him, was he a god? angel of death? You didnât know, tiredly watching as the two men exchanged words of agreement, before he lifted you, biting your neck.
You remembered the agony, throwing up as your body rejected your soul, killing itself. Louis carried you, while Lestat led the way, and the rest of your memory was gone.
Opening your coffin, you looked around the room, each side of you was a black coffin, empty. Noticing the small note on Lestatâs as you climbed out.
âLouis and I have business to attend to this evening, I trust you will hunt with Claudia, ma chèrieâ - L
Sitting the letter down, you walked down the stairs. Knowing Claudia, she had already left. Slipping on your shoes you began to walk the streets. The memories replayed in the back of your mind, as your feet aimlessly moved. Recognizing your surroundings, you slowed down, staring into the bar youâd plucked the Anderson relative from.
Suddenly, someone bumped your shoulder, catching your attention. An older woman, holding shopping bags.
âOh my, Iâm so sorry-Y/n?â You were stuck like a dear caught in headlights.
âGod has brought my baby home, donât just stand there and give your mama a hug,â she sat the bags down, as you cautiously approached, letting her tightly wrap her arms around you.
You were thankful for the times you practiced restraint and self control. It had been nearly three years of being a vampire, stuck at 26 and you grew better and better at controlling your urges around mortals, despite the occasional slip ups.
âMama?â
âOh baby, I knew youâd come back eventually, how was New York?â She asked, wiping the tears from her eyes.
âNew York?â You questioned, confused.
âWhy donât you come home, just for tonight?â She asked, hopeful. Slowly you nodded, letting her lead you to her car, handing the bags to her driver, you sat in the back seat next to her. Looking around, you hoped your surroundings would seem familiar but you had no clue where you were headed. After nearly fifteen minutes of driving, and your mother gushing about how much you were missed, the car began to slow down.
As the large house came into view, you frowned, unable to remember living there. The driver parked, and the front door opened.
âDid you get-Y/n? Y/n is back,â the younger boy who was exiting the house stopped, jumping for joy, screaming inside. A few more people came out, a familiar face catching your attention.
âY/n,â the woman screamed, running to you, colliding into you, as she wrapped her arms around your waist.
âCarol, can you make sure Y/n is made comfortable,â your mother asked.
âOf course, mama,â she nodded, grabbing your hands, leading you into the house.
âWhatâs with your eyes?â
âWhat do you mean?â
âNothing,â she let it go, as you stopped near the stairs, seeing all of the portraits. Family portraits. You stood amongst them, in the photos, even a painted portrait of yourself, along with your siblings.
âDaddy is going to be very happy to see you,â she smiled, pulling you up the stairs to a bedroom.
âWhere is he?â You asked, eyeing the room before you sat next to her on the bed.
âAt the sugar mill, duh, you know heâs a workaholic,â she laughed, before sitting up.
âSo how have you been? The last time I saw you, you were going on and on about that De Pointe Du Lac,â she smirked, biting her lip.
âIâm fine, Louis is fine,â you nodded.
âMy god, you married him? I hear he has a popular business in the quarter-
âNo, we have aâŚcompanionship, if that makes sense,â you mumbled, as she raised her eyebrows.
âOh? Thatâs nice-
âDaddyâs home,â the younger boy burst into the room, his eyes focused on you.
Standing up, you followed Carol from the room, down the stairs. Seeing the men and women standing downstairs, you stared plainly. These were your siblings and yet you couldnât remember or feel a thing.
âItâs good to see you,â the man, your brother, smiled, pulling you into a side hug before you followed them into the dining room.
Your father sat already, at the head of the table. Turning to face you, he stood up, you could hear his heart pounding, trembling. Slowly approaching you, you spoke up.
âDaddy,â you tried to sound as normal as possible, when he slung his arms around you. He began to cry, while you listened in on his thoughts. You were his favorite.
âYou two come sit, stop crying before I start too,â your mother laughed, as your father pulled away in agreement.
âSo how was New York?â
âYeah and why didnât you say goodbye, like you send a letter and disappear for three years,â your younger sister interrupted.
âDeloris, stop it, Iâm sure Y/n wanted to stop by but couldnât,â your mother interjected.
âI-New York was fine, very beautiful,â you said, accepting one of the many bowls of food being passed along. Taking a small piece of meat, you sat it on your nearly empty plate.
âYou came just in time for Josephâs engagement, heâs met a fine young lady from Gretna, Sarah, sheâll be here in a few days,â your mother pointed at your brother.
âFinally, heâs nearly 30 and we never thought heâd get married,â your younger brother said, making everyone laugh.
âCongratulations,â you told Joseph.
âThank you, and have you married, or are you with someone?â
âI have companions,â you smiled, nervously.
âMultiple?â Your father asked, stunned.
âOne of them is Louis,â Carol clapped.
âThe De Point Du Lac? I hear he lives with that French man-
âLestat De Lioncourt, god to be under him for a nightâ
âDeloris, watch your mouthâ
âSorryâ
âYou managed to stay in contact with him, but couldnât reach out to your family?â Your father spoke, a saddened expression.
âItâs complicated,â you mumbled.
âYou donât think itâs a bitâŚscandalous to have two lovers, who is the other?â your mother asked.
âLestat,â you said, clearing your throat, bracing yourself as nearly everyone gasped.
âLucky,â Deloris snickered.
âY/n, where are you?â You heard Clauiaâs voice, but you didnât respond.
âY/n, please tell me you're joking,â your father shook his head.
âI donât think this is a laughing matter,â you said, straightening your posture.
âY/n, where are you at?â Louis asked, making you clinch your jaw.
âYou kept in contact with those peculiar men, but it never crossed your mind to come home,â he slightly raised his voice.
âI said it was complicated,â you screamed over him, stabbing the fork into the meat, breaking the plate, before standing up, going to storm out of the house.
âY/n, wait,â your mother chased you, stopping you before you could leave.
âIâm sorry I came here,â you apologized.
âNo no, everyone is handling you being home differently, stay, you can go up to your room, here, I have something for you,â she reached for your cold hand, her warm thumb brushing over your veins. Leading you upstairs in the room, she went to the nightstand, pulled out a diary, handing it to you.
âI kept it, in case you ever came home, and I made sure no one read it,â she smiled sadly, kissing your forehead before she turned to leave.
âMa chèrie, enough of this, come homeâ Lestat said. You knew they were probably worried, for him to also use his powers to reach out to you.
âI wonât be home tonight,â you spoke, sending the message.
âDid you say something, honey?â Your mother stopped, turning to face you.
âNo, maâam,â you shook your head, watching as she exited the room.
Opening the book, your fingers traced down the words, the minor annotations, and little drawings on the side. You could still hear your vampire family faintly in your head when the room door opened.
âHey, Daddy is sorry, heâs too ashamed of how he acted to face you right now, but Iâm just letting you know, that Joseph, Antony, and Loretta left,â Carol spoke.
âOk,â you chuckled.
âAlso, I apologize in advance for the noise, Frankie is coming home soon and he is still a handful,â she laughed.
âFrankie?â
âYes and he is going to be so excited to see his favorite Aunt,â she said, before shutting the door.
Closing the curtain, grabbing a pillow, and climbing under the bed, you read the diary. Entry to entry, you consumed the thoughts of your former self, your heart growing more confused as you began to remember. By the time you finished, Claudia and Louis became silent while the sun was peeking into the room.
Slamming the book shut, your mind ran wild, questioning everything you thought youâd known. Your nails digging into the floor. Feeling the bloody tear slip down your eye, you quickly wiped it, as a you heard a soft knock.
âY/n? Y/n?â Your mother called out, a bit of panic in her voice.
âIâm under here,â you called out, waving from under the bed.
Lifting her dress, she moved to the floor, her eyes widening seeing you.
âWhat are you doing under here, honey?â She asked.
âIâŚI recently was diagnosed with a disease, my skin doesnât react well in the sun anymore, burning, irritation, the doctor says I should avoid it altogether,â you said, almost feeling guilty for lying, hearing how much it saddened her thoughts.
âI see, give me a few hours and Iâll make sure things are more comfortable around here, you try to get some sleep, love youâ
âI love you too,â you said, watching as she left the room.
âY/n, please tell me you are okay, we canât sleepâ you heard Louisâs voice.
âI am fineâ
âWhere are you?â
âThat is none of any of your concernsâ
âDonât be like that, what's the matter-
You shut your eyes, blocking out Louisâ voice, taking deep breaths, you thought about the words from the diary, as the sleep passed over you.
âMama and daddy have been arguing as of lately. Iâm 25 with no boyfriend or engagement, still living with them. Daddy doesnât see a problem with it, I have more time to find the perfect husband he argues, while Mama thinks Iâm not even looking. I havenât been, but thatâs because as special as New Orleans is, no one seems special enough to catch my attention. Since the issue has come up, Iâve found myself with Carol more. She is trying to find a new husband, a new father for Frankie, since his dad died in the Navyâ
âAll of the bachelors come here, you just might find yourself a treat,â Carol giggled, as the two of you sat at the table. The fancy restaurant in the French Quarter wasnât too interesting to you. You were already wealthy, and guaranteed quite the inheritance, while all of the women stood around, almost looking as if they were waiting on their lottery ticket.
âDo you ever wonder if there is more to life, than New Orleans?â You asked her boredly, as she made eye contact with the banker, waving at him.
âI ainât got time to think about that Y/n, Iâm 24 and already a widow with an infant,â she told you, standing, before walking to the man, sure to sway her hips, reeking of seduction.
Now alone, you sipped your wine, leaning back in your seat. The few men who looked your way eventually backed away, as you kept a scowl on your face.
âIf you keep your face like that, it might get stuck,â you heard, making you turn to face the crèole man.
âIf only I could see the appeal of this restaurant, then I wouldnât frown,â you told him, as he sat down.
âI agree, everything is so tasteless and looks so-
âCheap,â you and the blonde-haired man said at the same time, making you smile.
âIâm Y/n,â you held out your hand.
âLouis de Pointe du Lac,â he accepted your hand, his thumb brushing against your knuckles.
âAnd you, do you have a name?â
âLestat De Lioncourt,â he said, taking your hand from Louis, kissing your knuckles.
âWould you like to get out of here?â Louis started.
âSorry boys, I hope you didnât think I was that easy,â you pouted, laughing as Carol approached.
âYou ready to go?â You asked, seeing the look of disappointment on her face.
âYeah,â she said, crossing her arms.
âIt was wonderful to meet you both, goodbyeâ, you told them, standing up, and walking with Carol back to the car. Looking back, your eyes met theirs once more before you were on your way.
âLestat and Louis, there had been plenty of rumors that the two were lovers, even I was sure they were. However, they continued to reach out, inviting me to spend time with them. Carolâs friend, Lucy, thinks they might be competing to win my hand in marriage, but I think itâs far from that.â
âMr. De Lioncourt hasnât taken his eyes off of you all night,â Lucy bumped your shoulder, as you stood amongst the women. You were trying to not be âshamelessâ keeping your contact with Lestat and Louis to a minimum. However, their eyes had been glued on you from the moment you entered the party, and they werenât even hiding it.
âDonât flatter yourself,â one of the women rolled her eyes, perking up, as they approached.
âMa chèrie, you never responded to our letter,â Lestat told you, as you stared at the two of them surprised but confused.
âWith your flowers,â Louis said, as you gasped.
âOh, Iâm sorry, I didnât even notice a note with them, they are in my room, Iâll look when Iâm homeâ
âPlease do, weâre dying to know your response,â he told you, slinging his arm around Louis as they walked away. All of the women frowning in jealousy, while Carol laughed at them.
âThey are together, Lestat and Louis are together, but they like the idea of sharing? After a night of passion, I think itâs best that I stay away from the fabulously handsome men. I could never explain what happened to anyone without being judged, and so I will keep it to myself. They have been trying to reach out, but I am throwing every letter away. I hope they can understand.â
âIâm assuming youâre not a party girl?�� Louis asked you, making you jump, swiftly turning around.
âThis kind of party isnât my thing, all of these people, hoping to get on my fatherâs good side, it's pathetic,â you crossed your arms, as he approached.
âHow did you find where I was?â You asked him, tilting your head. You were hidden in your motherâs miniature hedge maze, sure no one would find you.
âI followed your scent, you always smell nice,â he grinned, while you rocked back and forth on your heels.
âYou shouldnât have followed me, what if I was a monster? luring you away from everyone,â you smirked at him.
âTrust me, you wouldnât be the monsterâ
âWhy do you think that?â You squinted at him, making him laugh.
âYouâre too cute, too precious, you should be more careful, you couldâve been being followed by a big bad wolf,â he taunted.
âI can defend myself perfectly fineâ
âIs that right?â
âOf course,â you smiled, watching as he leaned forward, his lips pressing against your own. Wrapping his arm around your waist, you moaned, before he pulled away.
Gasping, you noticed Lestat standing only feet away. Taking his usual confident strides, he stopped in front of Louis, the two sharing a passionate kiss. As the kiss broke off, he walked around to you, his hand softly going to the back of your neck, before he pulled you into a kiss.
âBe our companionâŚâ
âOurâs aloneâŚâ
âOk,â you agreed, not understanding at the time, the situation you'd put yourself in.
Standing in front and behind you, they took turns, kissing from your neck to mouth, slowly removing the articles of clothing. By the time you were finished, they laid in the grass, smiling, praising you, while you hurriedly dressed.
âI have to go,â you told them, running away, your hand going to your neck, where a bite mark resided.
âMy intuition was wrong about the two, Lestat and Louis are dangerous. Lestat seemed possessive, he didnât like the idea of me entertaining another man besides him or Louis. But Louis, he seemed convinced I was perfect with the two of them, they both just seemed delusional. I recently caught the pneumonia virus and Iâm trying to heal, and get over the fact that I was sick for my birthday but their constant sending of gifts isnât making me feel any better.â
âY/n, honey,â your mother called out, making you open your eyes.
âYes?â
âIt is safe to come out,â she said, as you slowly made your way out, noticing the windows covered by a board.
Leading you down the stairs, you felt uncomfortable seeing your siblings stare at you like an animal in zoo.
âMama told us about your skin condition, Iâm sorry, I-we can have the engagement at night,â Joseph offered.
âI couldnât do that to you-
âIt would be a pleasure, I want you there, and Sarah wonât mind, sheâll be here tomorrowâ
âThen Iâd love that,â you smiled, nodding.
âWonderful, I have something you can wear,â your mother clapped.
âI was hoping I could talk to you, about something,â you told your mother, as she sat on the sofa.
âOkay, whatâs on your mind?â
âDo you remember when I was sick, with the pneumonia?â
âYesâ
âWhen I was staying in the hospital-
âHospital? You didnât stay in a hospital, you were in your room. We were so worried, when you first caught it, but your body fought hard, you were better in no time,â she said, her hand on her heart.
âHow long was I here before I left, for New York? Reading the diary has my brain a little foggy,â you told her.
âOnly a few days after, I believe, before you left your letter,â she said, looking away at the memory.
âIâm sorry,â you apologized, trying to remember what happened. The fuzzy memory slightly coming back.
âItâs okay, honey, youâre here now,â she waved.
Sitting up in bed, pillows propped up behind you, you listened to the vinyl jazz music. Playing low in the room you hummed lightly. Everyone had left the previous day, going to see relatives, but you were still too sick to go. Although you were already feeling better, no longer bed-bound with a nasty fever. Hearing the sound of the front door opening, your ears perked up, as you climbed out of the bed. Stopping the music, you slowly tiptoed out of the room, stopping at the top of the stairs
âMa chèrie, it isnât nice to ignore people who care about you,â Lestat said from the bottom of the stairs.
Shaking your head, you went to run, bumping into Louis. Who also, didnât look too happy, backing down the stairs, you froze, seeing Lestat slowly walk up to you. You were trapped, dropping to your knees, you shielded yourself.
âPlease,â you covered your face, gasping in confusion as you were lifted, carefully brought to the sofa in the living room.
âYou havenât seen any of our letters?â Louis asked angrily before Lestat spoke.
âYou ignored us out of society-inflicted shame,â Lestat started.
âNo, it was nothing more than casual sex,â you said before he squished your cheeks together.
âIf you werenât so afraid of being judged by society, would you continue to deny yourself the pleasures you deserve?â Lestat asked, sitting next to you.
âOne of you bit me, I donât think I want either of you,â you told him as he chuckled before you noticed his abnormally sharp teeth. Fangs.
âShe doesn't want us, hear that Louis, weâre being rejected by our companion,â Lestat laughed loudly, as Louis stared at you as if you had two heads.
Suddenly, the front door opened, and your parents and your younger siblings entered the house. Doing a double take, your father frowned.
âWhat's going on in here?â
âNothing Daddy, we're just talking,â you stood up, moving in between him and the two peculiar men. Looking at them, you noticed the fangs in Louis's mouth.
âI don't think so, you two boys need to leave my house,â he said, the look on their faces showed they were highly offended at the choice of words.
âI am no boy, I am much older than youâŚâ Lestat stood up.
âDon't hurt them,â you told them, your eyes going from Louis to Lestat.
âPerhaps we can get to an agreement, they are spared, in exchange for your companionship,â Lestat offered. You searched for his face, trying to see if he was serious, while he stood, waiting on your response.
âFine,â you sighed, watching as Louis approached your family, putting them into a trance.
âYou came home and went straight to bed, Y/n was feeling better and decided to spend time with some friends tonight-
âYou should grab your things, ma chĂŠrie, and don't worry, that shame and fear instilled into you will be no more in a short while,â he told you, ushering you to go upstairs, while Louis made up a story to your family.
By the time you finished packing, they were gone, only Louis and Lestat waiting for you at the bottom of the stairs. Not saying a word, you followed them to the car, trying to let the realization sink in, but it still all seemed surreal.
Entering their home you nervously followed them, into the bedroom.
âYou can meet Claudia later,â Louis said, as they stared at you.
âYour daughter?â
âOur daughter,â he corrected you, but nodded.
âOkâ
âY/n, the love that weâve grown for you, itâs inhumanly, meant to be shared for an eternity, we can give you that,â Louis told you.
âYouâre scared, I can make sure you donât feel any pain, I can give you a piece of everlasting life. None of the things you have in this life hold any value to you, but I can give you something you will cherish,â Lestat told you.
âChoose us and weâll choose you for the rest of eternity,â Louis said, before you hesitatingly nodded.
âYou wonât be in pain for long,â Lestat told you, before he pulled you close, biting into your neck. Falling limb in his arms, he laid you on the bed, cutting his wrist, feeding his blood to you.
Shortly after, your body felt like it was on fire, your vision blurry. The two men stood over you, talking, Louis asking for a favor and Lestat debating on if he wanted to give in.
âDo it, before itâs too late, please,â he said, before Lestat looked at him, nodding, and facing you.
âLook at me, ma chèrie, you used to be a waitress at a barâŚwe were frequent customers when you met usâŚ.â As Lestat told you the fabricated story, he made sure to completely conceal your memory of your mortal life, as Louis requested.
As the memory came to mind your hands went to your eyes, trying to stop the bloody tears from leaking. The memory that changed the way that you viewed your maker and companions.
âAre you alright dear?â your mother asked, worried.
âI'm fine, mama, just happy to be home,â you told her, making her smile.
âAwe, honey, I'm glad that you are home, we all are,â she gushed, pulling you into a firm hug, before continuing with her conversation with your sibling.
âY/nâ Louis called out to you.
âExcuse me,â you said, getting up, going to the bathroom.
âLeave me alone, pleaseâ you told him.
âWhere is this coming from?â
âI just need this time away, itâs just me timeâ you told him, staring at your reflection.
âY/n, are you coming home?â You heard Claudia.
âEventuallyâ
âAlright, love youâ
âLove you tooâ you told her, before leaving the bathroom.
âY/n, I just wanted to apologize for my outburst last night. What you do in your private life is your business, and Iâm happy youâre home,â your father said, nervously, as you came back into the living room. Smiling, you didnât say anything, approaching him, pulling him into a hug.
As night fell, everyone turning in for bed, you went to the backyard, thankful to find a few rodents to feed on. With your hunger satisfied, you went to your room. Sitting at the desk, you ripping a piece of paper from the diary, grabbing an envelope from the drawer.
âI donât think this companionship will work out anymore. Lie after lie, neither of you have been honest or truthful with me. I thought relationships were built and thrived on trust. Not ours, a big lie to feed both of your delusional obsessions. Stay away from me. I will be leaving New Orleans soon, probably headed back to New Yorkâ you wrote, placing a stamp on the envelope.
âHey,â you called out, as you went outside stopping the teenage boy on his bike.
âBring this to Lestat De Lioncourt, his address is 1132 Royal Street,â you hypnotized the boy.
âBut thatâs all the way in the French Quarter,â he said in a monotone voice.
âI know, you will go right before the sun rises and it is okay because you were paid to do this,â you told him, watching as he smiled.
âYouâre right,â he nodded, accepting the letter, before taking the money in his other hand, stuffing it into his pocket.
âGo on now, itâs getting late,â you told him, as he nodded, riding home to his house as you went inside.
âY/n, you okay, darling?â Your father stood at the top of the stares.
âIâm ok, daddy,â you smiled, going upstairs to your bedroom.
Just as the sun began to rise, the young boy peddled his bike, careful to stay out of the way of any cars. For a second he wished his dad could have driven him, the 30 minutes bike ride would have been much shorter in a car.
Finally, he arrived, panting, he approached the townhouse. Opening the gate, he approached the door. Knocking softly, before speaking.
âMail for Lestat De Lioncourt,â he said, pushing the letter through the mail slot, before he left to peddle home.
Still wide awake, Lestat stood from his piano, approaching the door, stopping. He watched at the young hand slipped in, the letter floating to the floor, before the sound of the footsteps became distant.
Reading the letter, he felt a series of emotions, sadness, rage, disappointment.
âLouis,â he called out, his companion jogged down the stairs in confusion.
âYeah?â
âY/n remembers,â he gulped, as the two looked at each other.
âLooks like weâll have to make a stop tonight,â Louis said, before going back to his coffin.
âYouâre just as beautiful as Joseph said you were,â you gushed to Sarah. The house was filled with guests, the sun had set not too long ago, and the night was still young.
âOh my, thank you, he talked about you all the time, I never thought Iâd meet you,â she said.
âY/n, come here,â Carol called from the kitchen, before you excused yourself, joining her.
âWhat?â
âMr. Alexandre is asking to see you,â she lightly pushed you in the direction of the living room.
âWho?â
âHeâs one of Daddyâs associates, heâs young, rich, and handsome,â she said.
âAnd why donât you talk to him?â
âHe wants to speak with you and Iâd prefer his brother, I hear heâs a widower,â she whispered, as you turned, walking towards where the man stood, amongst a few other businessmen.
âMiss Y/n,â the man called out, stepping forward.
âMr. Alexandre,â you said, accepting his hand.
âIf I could have a moment with youâŚâ
âYou may,â you said, walking into the hallway with him, near the stairs. You could feel his colleagues staring at the two of you.
âWhat is it?â
âI was hoping I could take you out for dinner, perhaps the steamboat, there is a nice band that plays-
âI am sorry, but no thank you,â you shook your head, about to leave, but he gripped your forearm.
âA little birdy told me that you have a thing going on with the European and crèole man in the quarter, I thought they were homo-
âMr. Alexandre, my personal business is none of your concernâ
âThen to have that little girl with them, like sheâs their daughter, itâs twisted. You donât need to get involved with them, tarnishing your reputation,â he said, making you think back to the society-inflicted shame Lestat spoke about.
âDo not speak about my reputation or any of them,â you shoved him, watching as he collided into the wall. A few people gasped, coming to see what was the commotion.
âY/n, what happened?â Your father asked as the front door opened.
Along with a gust of wind Lestat, Louis, and Claudia all walked in, heads turning as everyone murmured about them. All of the eyes were on them and they never looked their way, solely focused on you.
âY/n, why havenât you come home?â Claudia ran to you, pulling you into a hug. You could feel how tense she felt, you frowned at the thought of her being upset.
âIâm sorry,â you told her, closing your eyes and taking in her usually sweet scent.
âY/n,â your mother called out, now standing next to your father, a confused expression in place.
Before you could say anything, Lestat turned her way, gasping, you stepped up, when he turned facing you. Immediately you stopped, your eyes going down, while he moved closer.
âMadame,â he held out his hand, accepting hers, before placing a soft kiss on it.
âGet away from my wife,â your father said, taking her hand back.
âSo you was gonna leave home?â Louis asked you, taking off his glasses.
âYou lied to me, both of you did,â you told him.
âLouis, what is she talking about?â
âNothing, go wait outside Claudiaâ
âLouis-
âItâs okay, go wait outside,â you told her, watching as she walked away, bumping the shoulder of a few guests, scaring them.
âYouâŚboth of you, did this to me, and for what? to satisfy your fantasies-
âTo save you, you donât belong with these people, their rules and principles, your nature goes against all of it. You could have never been happy with the way they wanted you to become,â Lestat told you.
âY/n, itâs not safe to be around any of them, how long do you think youâll be able to resist your urges, itâs best to leave them where theyâre at,â Louis told you.
âIs this the brainwash they both feed you, two queer men trying to destroy and isolate everything youâve known. I wouldnât burden you with such ideologies,â Mr. Alexandre said, standing up, limping off the pain.
âAnd what are those ideologies, you speak of?â The tension thickened in the room as Lestat was in front of him within a flash.
âI-I-â he began to stutter.
âThese ideologies include being unapologetic even if it goes against society, not putting limitations on yourself, and redefining what family is. None of these things you know anything of because you think Y/n is as brainless as the rest of these women,â Lestat said before roughly grabbing his jaw.
âYou could learn a thing or two before you let your mouth run so loosely,â he said, shoving him, watching as he collided with the wall, breaking through the wallpaper.
âNow you-
Lestat raised his hand, freezing everyone in the room, as your father began to yell.
âYour memory was wiped away, but everything has been real. Our love, Claudiaâs love, nothing was forced. These people have caused you nothing but anxiety and shame, but if you want to throw us away, for them, I wonât stop you,â Lestat screamed, storming away, as the bloody tear slipped from his eyes.
âI thought I could balance both lives, it isnât possible,â Louis told you, as you kept your head down.
âIs it possible to take away their memory, I wonât kill them, if they could just go on with their lives like before I was here,â you asked, while he immediately nodded.
Lestat had been right about so many things, how different you were, the restrictions you felt in your previous life. You werenât ready to be on your own, you still needed your family. Perhaps it was better for you to not have been aware of the truth, to begin with.
âThat can be arranged,â he said, motioning for you to go outside with Claudia. Stopping in front of your mother, you kissed her cheek, before leaving the house.
Getting into the backseat of the car with Claudia, she intertwined her fingers with your own. Lestat didnât say a word to you, walking back into the house, as everyone unfroze.
After nearly 15 long minutes, the two left the house. You could see the party continuing, Carol could be seen with a small boy in her arms, accepting him from an older woman. The entire ride home was painfully quiet. The faint music from the locals could be heard as the house came more into view.
Claudia went to her room, while you meekly followed the two to your shared room. Stepping out of their clothing, they were preparing for rest, when you stopped.
âLestat, I-please make me forget again,â you asked, making them look at each other, before staring at you.
âAfter all of this-
Moving to your knees, you crawled to him, prepared to beg to him, as if he was your god. Raising his eyebrow, even he looked surprised by your actions.
âPlease make me forget, and we can go back to how we were,â you told him. Reaching for his hand, your head laid upon it, begging for your wish to be granted.
âStand up, ma chèrieâ
âHow was the hunt?â Louis asked as you and Claudia both entered the house.
âWonderful,â you laughed, plopping next to him. Lestat sat at his piano, idly pressing the keys that still managed to sound effortless.
âWhat are you doing?â You asked Louis, leaning your head on his shoulder.
âCatching up on the paper, gorgeous,â he smiled, flipping the newspaper.
Your eyes widened at the image of the article, L/n Sugar Mill family home is burned down, leaving no survivors after an extravagant engagement party.
âWow, and that was such a nice house,â you said, pointing out the picture, before picking up a nearby book.
âIt was,â Louis agreed lowly, the trio briefly making eye contact.
With your memory wiped once again, the last thing any of them wanted was another situation that could cause you to want to break away from them. No one could ever come close to loving you like the three and they made sure there was no would who would awaken your memories, tearing you away from your little family.
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your stomach shivered as his finger slowly traced down your abdomen, he stopped just above your pants before looking back up to you, blue eyes taunting.
"can I take 'em off?" he mumbled, once your head dipped down into a nod he threw them off you and worked your legs over his shoulders
his thumb pressed on the wet fabric of your bloomers, his teeth sunk down on his lips like a predator knowing he had his prey pinned
"y'trust me, love?"
did you trust him? even if he had a gun in your mouth you know he loves you too much to even think about pulling the trigger.
"of course I do"
if one fatal swipe you're left naked and exposed with your folds spread and slick spilling out of you. he crawled closer and your knees widened on his shoulders
his lips fell open as his wet tongue swipe up your cunt, your entire being tickled as he moaned into your core.
"so fuckin' sweet" he whispered, eyes closed as he licked you up. your hips unstable as his movements run you wild, your lips fell open as your fingers found his hair
"billy please don't stop" you cried, his tongue broke into you and started pumping, you gasped as your legs shook softly. he moaned as your thighs engulfed him
your hips jolted as you came around his tongue, sweet hot bliss filling your body as he obscenely slurped it up
"taste like fuckin' sugar" he whispered in between licks, your eyes got cloudy as your sensitivity got worse
"too much" you mumbled, he kissed your thigh before moving on top of you to catch your lips in a kiss.
your flavour mixing with his and he lapped at your tongue like he did with your clit
when the kiss broke he tore his shirt off and threw his pants to the side
his dick was standing on its own, it almost looked painful with how hard it was. his deep red tip dribbled out slick as his veins bulged out
his fingers had you looking up as he wore a calm expression, but the wildfire in his eyes still burned hot for you
"It might hurt, baby. please let me know...we don't have to do it all tonight" he said, sincerity pure on his lips but you were having none of it
"I can take it" confidence suddenly nowhere in sight as you look back down at the thing that was supposed to go inside of you
"-tell me" he was stern about not hurting you, you knew that, but you just wanted to make him feel good.
"I'll tell you if it hurts, billy" you said like a child apologizing, stubborn as ever.
he huffed and brought your legs back up to his shoulders, his lean body twisting you like nothing as he began to sink into you
"oh fuck" your hand immediately slapped to your lips and you thought billy might have had a point. he chuckled and in a few minutes he was inside of you and it didn't hurt like before
"y' gonna listen to me now, love?" he asked, a coy smile toying his lips as your pupils shook from the overwhelming feeling of his cock just sitting in you
"yes" you whispered, he pecked your lips and thrust his hips and your back started arching
"fuckin' hell you're tight" he groaned, looking at your face contort as his thumb found your lips and pushed his way in
you suckled on his finger and he couldn't help the way his hips stuttered at the sight
he removed his thumb and lean further to you, knees almost meeting your head as his dick felt even deeper
"keep lookin' at me, sweetheart" he lovingly whispered and you managed to meet his eyes
you felt so full of him, you squeezed him tight as he started to speed his movement up, cock kissing every nerve you ever had as the thumb you just wet moved down to your clit
"I need you to come f'me" he babbled, lewd and sloppy noises of your love-making filling the air as he made you scream
"billy!" you cried as you came around him, sucking him in deeper and deeper as your back arched into him. teeth-clanking kisses were shared as he shot his load straight to your womb
he collapsed on top of you, you both panting before he scooped your shaking tired body to the bathroom and started to run a bath
your wet bodies sleepily holding onto each other in the warm water as he kissed your damp hair and mumbled praises
"gonna make love to you every day from now on"
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Aim for the Sky Part 10 | Rooster x Reader
Summary: With a little help from his best friend, Bradley rushes to the hospital, panic overtaking his system at the thought of something happening to one of his girls. He was supposed to be the one to take care of you. He felt like he failed.
Warnings: Angst, hospitals, injury while pregnant, potential pregnancy complications, vomit, blood, fluff
Length: 4500 words
Pairing: Bradley "Rooster" Bradshaw x Female Reader
Aim for the Sky masterlist. This was written to accompany my series Is It Working For You? along with a bunch of my one-shots and other series, but it can be read on its own! Check my masterlist for the reading order.
Bradley felt wrappers and empty bottles crunch under his combat boots as he climbed into the passenger seat and slammed the door shut. Nat had the engine started, and she was tearing through the parking garage without a word. This may have been the first time he didn't have the desire to complain about his best friend's driving or her filthy SUV. He felt too numb to really consider anything except time ticking away on the digital clock on the dashboard.
You were fine this morning. Maybe not great, but you definitely didn't appear as though you were going to collapse at any moment. The only thing Bradley knew was that you passed out in your lab and hit the floor pretty hard. When he begged Nat for more information, she just shrugged, her brow pinched with concern while he cried. At least she wouldn't expect him to say anything at the moment, and she wouldn't even get mad if he threw up like he wanted to.
If anything devastating happened to you or Rosie, he didn't know how he was going to deal with it. He should have been checking on you more often at work. He'd been listening to you telling him you were going to try to eat more even though you weren't feeling well, but he hadn't pressed you to do so.
"Oh, god," he choked out, the afternoon sun and bluebird sky mocking him now as he sobbed into his hands. Nat whipped around a corner, honking at someone, and he didn't really care what happened as long as she got him to you and his daughter as quickly as possible. He had been in the car for six minutes already, winding through Coronado, and he was starting to panic more as he thought about how long you might have been unconscious. Or worse, maybe you were still unconscious now. He couldn't think about anything beyond that, because when he started to slip into that unsettling headspace, he felt his hands shake as bile stung the back of his throat.
"Nat, I can't live without her," he gasped, subconsciously knowing he was talking about both of you. Her hand reached out to squeeze his briefly before returning to the wheel, and he watched as she actually cut around a public transit bus to make a turn.
"We're almost there," she promised, and he nodded as his head tipped back against the headrest. If you and Rosie were okay, he was never going to willingly leave your side again. He'd been worried about someone bumping into you at the fucking Hard Deck, and that was nothing compared to this.
"What am I gonna do?" he whispered, eyes squeezed closed as he ran his sweaty palms along the rough fabric of his flight suit, his breathing starting to get erratic. It was his privilege in life to take care of you. Anything you needed or wanted, he'd hand it to you on a silver platter. But the only thing he needed and wanted was his little family. "Fuck."
"Bradley," Nat snapped, shaking him roughly by his bicep as she careened into the hospital parking lot and made a straight shot for the emergency room entrance. "You need to keep it together. Do you understand?"
"Yeah," he gasped, images far more terrifying than anything he'd ever thought about circling his brain.
"If something happened to the baby, your wife is going to need you to be strong."
Her words left him reeling, because he knew he'd never be as strong as you were. That was part of why he loved you so much. And Rose would be just like you, and he'd have two silver platters ready as soon as she was born. He swallowed hard as her SUV came to a screeching stop in front of a door that said AMBULANCE PARKING ONLY, and he fumbled his seatbelt with shaking fingers before jumping out onto the curb and running inside.
There was an elderly man in a wheelchair and a kid with crutches. Someone with a bloody bandage around their head was moaning in one of the seats, but he didn't see you as he came skidding to a halt in front of the check-in desk. "I need to see my wife. She's pregnant." The last word came out like too much of a question for him to handle, and he had to grip the edge of the desk for support while the woman behind it looked up at him with a neutral expression.
"I'll need to see your identification and get approval before you can go back," she told him smoothly as he yanked his military ID out of the badge holder he was wearing and handed it to her. "What is your wife's name?"
Bradley recited it to her quickly and reverently, watching as she typed away on the keyboard in front of her. "Do you know if she's okay? Can you check if she's alright?" he begged, squeezing her desk again as she slowly shook her head.
"I'm sorry, sir, but all I can see is which room she was taken to and which doctors are working on her case."
"But she's pregnant," he repeated in desperation, hoping that if he said it again, the words would still be true.
"I understand," she said smoothly, handing his ID back to him along with a medical bracelet with the date and time stamped on it. "Put that on your wrist, and have a seat while I see if someone can take you back to her."
Bradley stood there, even more numb to his surroundings than he had been in Nat's car. His ears were ringing, and he had a disturbing metallic taste in his mouth, making it harder and harder to swallow as he swayed on his feet. Based on his extensive military training, he figured he must be going into shock, but he would force himself to remain alert until he saw you for himself. Until he felt his daughter moving.
He could hear the woman pick up the phone and say, "Can someone let me know the visitation status of the patient in room seventeen? Her husband is here." There was a pause before she added, "Yes, I checked him in, and he has a bracelet on."Â
But she wasn't paying attention to him, and he was already moving now toward the double doors that said EMERGENCY ROOM ACCESS: STAFF AND PATIENTS ONLY BEYOND THIS POINT WITHOUT ESCORT. He needed to get to you immediately, and everyone else could literally fuck off. He'd take the double doors right off the hinges with his bare hands if necessary. In fact, he would be more than happy to do so. But as he approached them, ready to get through by any means necessary, one door swung open as someone in scrubs strolled through, and he ducked right inside.
Room seventeen. He read the guide on the wall and rushed down the hallway to his right. The thudding of his heartbeat and the sound of his own breathing was almost deafening as he ran. The fluorescent lights were making him dizzy as he read the number on each door. But then he saw it. Room seventeen was straight ahead, and the door was open a few inches, light filling the gap as he started calling your name. He was almost there as the tears started up again, and he was pushing his way into the room as he rasped, "Baby Girl," at the sight of you on the bed.
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When you woke up for the third time, you were so dizzy, you turned your head and started to gag. "It's okay," came an unfamiliar voice in the freezing cold room with too bright lights. "I have the garbage can ready for you."
That certainly was convenient. Just when you needed to throw up all of the contents of your stomach, someone was there to help you out. You never had service like that when you were battling morning sickness unless Bradley had been around. You made horrible noises as you heaved, the room still spinning even as you tried to ease yourself onto your back once again. You wanted to say thank you to the unknown voice of the blurry person next to you, but instead you asked, "Where am I?"
"The emergency room at Sharp Coronado Hospital."
That really didn't make any sense. You'd just been at work. Today was your birthday. Bradley was taking you to the hot sauce restaurant for dinner. Then your brain fog began to clear, and you started kicking at the white blanket that was keeping your legs warm in the freezing room. You were in a hospital gown, and when your hands came to rest on your belly, you realized you couldn't feel the baby moving. At all. You shifted your hands around frantically, and while your body was painfully tender, you could feel nothing. No somersaults. No squirms. No kicks. No thumps. Rosie was never this still.
"What happened to my baby?" you asked, voice wrecked with unchecked sobs as the woman beside you set the garbage can down and reached for your shaking hand. "I can't feel her!"
Something caught on the hospital gown, and you realized there were stitches running the length of the side of your swollen left hand. Your rings were missing, which was also scary, but you couldn't think of a single good reason why your daughter wasn't moving around inside your belly when she was always so active.Â
You sobbed loudly as the woman with you took your hand in hers, and you realized she was trying to calm you down as all of the equipment you were connected to started going crazy with loud beeps. Your pulse and blood pressure were through the roof and getting worse as she finally said, "The baby is okay, but we can't have you going into shock again. Listen to my voice and take deep breaths."
"Why isn't she moving?" you shrieked, still fighting to keep your hands on your belly.
"Because you're on pain medication," she said, and you finally realized there were two sets of monitoring devices, and the one with the wires that led to the band wrapped around your belly were giving a much calmer readout.
"Is that her heartbeat?" you asked, pointing to the screen that was displaying the pattern you were used to seeing when you were at your appointments with Dr. Morris.
"Yes, the baby is just fine. The obstetrician on rotation checked her out by ultrasound before we even stitched up your hand and wrist. But you need to stay calm while the medication starts wearing off. You've got extensive bruising, and we're still treating you for a possible concussion, but we can't keep you on the painkillers for a prolonged amount of time, okay?"
The words almost made sense, but they just didn't. And you couldn't stay calm, because you wanted Bradley. Hot tears leaked from your eyes as you tried to take a deep breath, but you shook from nerves and cold. Your teeth were suddenly chattering so hard, your jaw felt like it was snapping, and you could have sworn you heard someone calling your name. As the nurse took a step away from you, that voice started to sound louder. You squeezed your eyes closed, trying to collect all of your thoughts, but there was no mistaking your husband's voice.
"Baby Girl!" he called out, eyes frantic and face far too pale as he pushed the door open and rushed to your side. His pupils were blown wide as he reached for you, and when he closed his eyes, you saw a tear streak down his face. He blinked a few times like he couldn't be sure you were real, so you reached for his face. He dropped to his knees next to the bed as he took your hand gently in his. "Are you okay?" came his shaky question, and you tried to nod as your teeth chattered. "Is Rosie okay?" His words were filled with something terribly close to agony, and you started crying harder.
"Yes," you whispered, trying to pull him closer. He would keep you warm and make you feel so much better, but his whole body was wracked with horrible sobs as he scooted closer until his lips were on yours in the gentlest kiss.
"Oh my god," he said, voice breaking as he cried. "Oh my god, Sweetheart. You're both really okay?" You were nodding in a jerky motion as his hand slid down to your belly, and you could have sworn the baby squirmed just for him. "I was fucking terrified out of my mind. I'm so sorry I wasn't with you. I love you."
His lips were kissing along your cheek as he kept his arm wrapped around you like you were capable of getting up and running away at the moment. As if you would even want to. It wasn't his fault this happened. It was an accident. You could remember listening to Bickel talking about your new list of tasks and the borrowed equipment from Lemoore, and then you just hit the ground. It was evident that you weren't doing enough to take care of yourself as it felt like your whole system was changing again in your third trimester. You needed to do better.
"I'm okay," you insisted, running your fingers through his hair. He melted into your touch, his face finally relaxing slightly as the color came back to his cheeks. When the nurse cleared her throat, you realized you forgot she was there.
"Sir, I don't think you're supposed to be in here."
Bradley was shooting her a nasty glare as more members of hospital personnel, including a security guard, walked into your room.
"What did you do?" you whispered as your husband held onto you just as gently as ever, but now he was shaking his head.
"I'm not leaving this room until my wife and daughter do," he told everyone in a loud, commanding voice. "You can be pissed off or whatever that I didn't wait to be escorted in, but I'm not going anywhere."
The security guard looked at the nurse, and she simply shrugged in response, but you stopped paying attention to them when Bradley turned back to look at you, his brown eyes wide and sincere as he said, "I'm here now, and I'm not going to let anything else happen to either of you."
Finally, you were able to warm up in his arms, and you calmed down a little bit more with each subtle squirm you felt from the baby. Bradley was kissing along your fingers, being mindful of your stitches when he froze. "Sweetheart, where are your rings?"
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Bradley wished he smelled better and was wearing something softer, but you didn't complain about the faint scent of jet fuel or the scratchiness of his flight suit as he whispered over and over again how much he loved you. He didn't move an inch from his spot on the floor next to the bed as an emergency room doctor came to check you out again followed by an obstetrician.
"You may have preeclampsia, but you'll need a diagnosis from your own doctor based on historical data from your entire pregnancy. It's hard to tell whether all of the excitement from today is responsible for your high blood pressure or if it's the other way around."
"Preeclampsia," Bradley repeated, giving your fingers a little squeeze. "Isn't that dangerous?"
"It can be," you whispered, and the doctor nodded in agreement.
"Bottom line," the doctor said, tapping the line of fluids being pumped into your body, "you were severely dehydrated and seemed to have a reaction to undereating. The stitches in your hand can be monitored from home until you can see your own doctor next week, so we can discharge you tonight. As long as you keep eating and drinking and stay off your feet as much as possible for the next few days. Healthy meals and rest."
"Okay," you whispered, looking so small and sad in the hospital bed that Bradley wanted to protect you at all costs.
"So I can take them home?" he confirmed, wanting nothing more than to get you cleaned up and changed and tucked into the king sized bed with a tray of food. When the doctor nodded, he sighed in relief.
He had been checking his phone sporadically, which finally helped him solve the wedding ring mystery. Cat took them off of you in the ambulance when your fingers started to swell, and she promised she had them with her. He also knew Nat let Tramp out and was ready to stay the night with him if necessary. She even let him know that she dropped his Bronco off in the hospital parking lot with Jake a few hours ago, and that someone was sitting in the waiting room, ready to give him the keys whenever you got discharged. He wasn't sure who it was, but when you were finally discharged and nearly falling asleep at ten o'clock, he was surprised by what he found.
As the nurse pushed you toward the exit in a wheelchair, Nat, Bickel, Cat and Jake all got to their feet in the waiting room. You burst into tears as Jake handed Bradley his car key and knelt down next to you.
"Don't cry, Angel," he drawled softly. "On second thought, maybe you should cry. Even after waking from that concussion, I hate to inform you that you really are married to Bradshaw." He gave your cheek a little kiss as your tears turned to laughter as he stood up again, and Bradley rolled his eyes.
Nat gave Bradley a hug while Cat fussed over putting your rings onto your right hand for the time being. Then Bickel said, "Do not report to work until you've been cleared by your doctors, Lieutenant Commander. I don't care if that's in four days or four months."
You looked worried now as you ran your fingers along your stitches. "Sir. Did I... break the lab equipment when I fell?" you whispered, and even Bradley could tell by Bickel's face that you probably did. "I didn't mean to."
But there was a reason you liked your boss so much, and you visibly relaxed in the wheelchair as Bickel said, "I'm worried about you, not the equipment, Lieutenant Commander. I'll check in with you on Monday."
When Bradley was finally helping you into the Bronco, you had tears in your eyes, but you looked a lot more relaxed than you had earlier. "I'm so tired, Roo," you whispered as he buckled you and Rosie in with a kiss to your belly.
"I know," he replied, pretty exhausted himself. "I'll take care of everything, okay? I'm just sorry you're not having a better time on your birthday."
When you looked at him and softly said, "It's much better now," he swiped at the tears on your cheeks with his thumbs. "I'm sorry I scared you, and I'll be better about eating, okay? And if I have preeclampsia, I'll make sure Rosie is my number one priority every day, even if I feel awful from forcing nutrients into my body."
Bradley smiled and said, "I just wish I'd been able to take you to Del Mar tonight so you could enjoy some hot sauce." Just then, his phone started ringing in his pocket, and he thought perhaps it was your parents; they'd been biting at the bit for more information after he texted them throughout the day.
"Who is it?" you asked, and he sighed as he checked the number.
"It's the bar I reserved for the evening," he replied, ignoring the call until he got you home.
"Bar? For what?"
He kissed away the rest of your tears and murmured, "Our private silent disco. That's what I got you for your birthday."
You gasped and pulled him close, and even as you cried more, you said, "You're the best husband who ever existed. And I ruined my own night and scared us both half to death."
"Shhh," he coaxed. "We can go a different time. As long as my girls are okay, nothing else really matters. Now can I take you home for a slice of birthday cake and get you snuggled in bed?"
"Yes," you sniffed.Â
Not even fifteen minutes later, you were standing in the kitchen in your bra and underwear, eating a slice of the cake that said 'Happy Birthday, Baby Girl' which he'd hidden behind a bunch of things in the refrigerator since yesterday. Per the doctor's instructions, he made sure you had plenty of water to drink before he got you in a warm bath and helped you wash yourself.
"Come in," you said softly, stifling a yawn. "I didn't get to do any of the other stuff you planned for my birthday, but I want you in here with me."
With a deep, exhausted sigh, he unzipped his flight suit, your eyes glued to his every movement. His body was aching now from the rush of terrified adrenaline earlier and how much he'd worried about you since arriving at the hospital. He held your left hand above the water and slipped into the tub behind you, his body automatically relaxing as you eased back against him. Then he placed your hand on the edge of the tub to keep your stitches dry, and he held you as he whispered, "I love you," before setting his hand on your belly.
Finally, your heart rate felt normal again, and as the water got cooler, he could tell you were starting to doze off in his arms. He whispered the birthday song, and a smile crept along your lips even though your eyes were closed, and eventually he had to coax you out of the bath and into bed.
Just as your birthday officially ended, you were laying on your side snoring softly, and Bradley kissed your shoulder before he reached for the blue and pink striped notebook and a pen from his nightstand. While he was pleased you were able to fall asleep, he knew he'd be up for quite a while still, processing everything that had happened. The terrible thought of losing you and the baby left him with the realization that he didn't know if he'd actually be able to cope with something like that happening. It made his skin crawl all over again, but he knew he had to process it somewhere.
Hey, Rosie. You'll learn pretty quickly why I love Mommy's birthday so much. Actually, you'll learn pretty quickly that I try to make every day special for her. It's because she makes everything better for me just by being around. Her smile can make the worst day incredible, and her laughter makes me feel like I'm falling in love with her all over again. But today was her birthday, and it was one of the worst days of my life. I was scared that I was going to lose something that could never be replaced. Something I can't live without. I would do anything for you, Rosie. And I would do anything for your mom.
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When you first woke up on Saturday, your entire body was aching from your fall. For a second, you swore you could hear Bradley and Phoenix talking in the other room, but when you rolled onto your other side with Rose thumping around, you fell asleep again before you could investigate. When you woke up for the second time, you were absolutely certain you could hear Bradley talking to your mom.
You pulled on a random pair of sweatpants and a stretchy maternity tank top, making a stop in the bathroom before heading down the hallway. When you peeked into the kitchen, Bradley had the iPad propped up on the counter, and he had your cutting boards and cookware out as your mom chatted away.
"You have to peel the carrots just like you would a potato, and then you can cut them into pieces about this big."
"Right," he replied, slowly peeling the orange vegetable in this hand and then slicing it while your mom watched. "Should I put it in the chicken broth?"
"Not yet," she instructed. "Wait until you're ready to add the celery and put them in at the same time. And it never hurts to add a few extra carrots."
"Got it," he told her, setting aside three more carrots on the counter. "And tomorrow morning you'll help me with the chicken pot pie again?"
"Of course I will," she promised. "And I'll show you how to make tomato sauce when you're ready."
"Thanks." He wiped his brow with a dishtowel, voice thick with emotion as he said, "She scared me half to death yesterday. I need to make sure she's eating and drinking enough. When Natasha went grocery shopping for me earlier, I had her get these hydration packs that you can add to water along with cases of Gatorade. So those should be good. And if you help me cook every day, I'm hoping she can start to stomach food again."
"It sounds like you have everything under control, but if you want me to fly out, I can be there tomorrow."
Bradley wavered for a few seconds, but ultimately said, "I can handle it with your help over FaceTime. I'll take care of my girls."
"I have all the confidence in the world that you will," your mom told him. "Call this afternoon when she's awake, okay?"
A few seconds later, after he ended the call, you walked all the way into the kitchen while he was filling the crockpot with chicken broth. "Are you making me soup?"
"Sweetheart." He sloshed some of the liquid onto the counter in surprise and then pulled you into his arms. Your stomach was growling, and Rosie was doing somersaults, and you could see the playset in the backyard through the window. "Yeah, chicken noodle soup for dinner, but I can get something else for you now."
You couldn't stop smiling as he listed off all of the food options for breakfast and lunch. "My mom was right. I also have all of the confidence in the world that you'll take top notch care of us."
"You heard my conversation with her?" he asked, running his thumb gently along the skin next to your stitches as you nodded. "Listen, if your parents move to Coronado, I can get my culinary lessons in person. And then I'll have two more people to help me look after you, because to be honest, it's getting harder by the day, Baby Girl. Now how about some avocado toast and a small slice of birthday cake for breakfast?"
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Take care of your girls, Roo. They mean more to you than anything else. His journal entry made me cry. Rose is already so loved, and I can't wait for her arrival. Thanks @beyondthesefourwalls
PART 11
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